Hello, Ren! You are doing your best; you have built your own values and live your own experiences, and differ from requiring others' approval to be and express what you do feel, and what you do deem as true to your own individuality:
Anyone, by their own experiences and values, is free to take decisions they deem best for themselves to, regardless of their inherent qualities; has nothing to do with you, and isn't your responsibility to be liable of what others do: You differ from requiring to prove your friendship, or anything to anyone; it is in others' volition to trust in you, regardless of what you do.