Guess what, I AM DEAD
Dead as you could be...
or something...like that Eminem song...
Either way the laptop shut down yesterday like a bitch setting me bacck hundred years into the past in practice. I don't know what the damn problem is, it might be due to that new linux version that is buggy and broken due to them changing too much stuff again and syntax. Well...whatever.
I am exhausted. I am in pain every day. I have various ailments that are not spotted by a naked eye, sometimes out of past tortures or accidents. I can "normally" manage. But now when it gets so hot like it was yesterday. It puts me to sleep and I get to feel it even more so my body overcompensates by putting in more "sedative" into my system.
Sometimes having high pain threshold is a pain because your body overcompensates for something. Thus rendering me useless. Now imagine if I get jailed when such temperatures are rising. I am basically dead and unable to function, anyone can make attempt on my life without being able to defend myself. I couldn't defend myself against rape in that situation before. But now its all way more deadly.
The laws even by themselves don't work here exactly as in poland, there are more graduations within the system so I really find it arrogant to presume something, but even then...as I was told few days ago by somebody it is all "anarchy in practice" as they do whatever they can and get away with it. Not a true anarchy, I think I would welcome that more, but it is a form of a police state where the rule of law is often not respected, depending on the region you are in, because they are all autonomous and it all has to go through the basic court in the region/district wherever it bloody happened. I can prove a lot what I am saying and whatever I can't you will just have to trust me, apart from my speculations, but DON'T DOUBT me on things I went through personally and things I know 100 percent.
There are "professionals" that have neglected me and mistreated me, including some doctors. It does happen and there's hardly a thing you can do in practice unless you have the time and resources on your hand which I DON'T RIGHT NOW.
I just keep telling this but no I am always so easily dismissed, just like the guy who tried to warn about the killer rabbit in MP Holy Grail movie. Because sometimes it gets as absurd as that obviously.
There's a lot more that people misunderstand but let's keep at this for now. Because I don't want to go too offtopic into things that were said elsewhere and what not. But don't presume my intentions by default. Like TTG thinking I did something on a game map deliberately while I worked off the beta version as a base and not whatever he assumed was the thing. Thus I didn't do any change I just kept that part the way it was.
it doesn't matter what it is, but it keeps happening. If correlation causation argument is going to apply, then it should also not be applied to me all the time as if I am the one doing something deliberately...all the damn time. Because the courts do apply it to me and so does he when he thinks I had this and this intention. No. That has to stop. This double standard hypocrisy. Because otherwise you're as bad as them. When you don't let me make the same argument against something, but you and the court can happily give judgements. I do not think so. I will make my own freedom in one way or the other and if you want to stand in my way I'd rather if you killed me than allowing me to die in THEIR HANDS. Which is worse than death.
Also my words don't hold any weight? They hold weight like HEAVY STEEL!
Look at my track record, all the Unreal betas/alphas out there, the vast majority out there thanks to me or in some cases at least partly. Most of my Unreal theories got confirmed and who was it that discovered the hidden Unreal hub system, huh?
Do you think that if I have such a track record and detective skill inside the Unreal world, do you think it can *only* be limited to that? Think again before you say such things.
Dead as you could be...
or something...like that Eminem song...
Either way the laptop shut down yesterday like a bitch setting me bacck hundred years into the past in practice. I don't know what the damn problem is, it might be due to that new linux version that is buggy and broken due to them changing too much stuff again and syntax. Well...whatever.
I am exhausted. I am in pain every day. I have various ailments that are not spotted by a naked eye, sometimes out of past tortures or accidents. I can "normally" manage. But now when it gets so hot like it was yesterday. It puts me to sleep and I get to feel it even more so my body overcompensates by putting in more "sedative" into my system.
Sometimes having high pain threshold is a pain because your body overcompensates for something. Thus rendering me useless. Now imagine if I get jailed when such temperatures are rising. I am basically dead and unable to function, anyone can make attempt on my life without being able to defend myself. I couldn't defend myself against rape in that situation before. But now its all way more deadly.
The laws even by themselves don't work here exactly as in poland, there are more graduations within the system so I really find it arrogant to presume something, but even then...as I was told few days ago by somebody it is all "anarchy in practice" as they do whatever they can and get away with it. Not a true anarchy, I think I would welcome that more, but it is a form of a police state where the rule of law is often not respected, depending on the region you are in, because they are all autonomous and it all has to go through the basic court in the region/district wherever it bloody happened. I can prove a lot what I am saying and whatever I can't you will just have to trust me, apart from my speculations, but DON'T DOUBT me on things I went through personally and things I know 100 percent.
There are "professionals" that have neglected me and mistreated me, including some doctors. It does happen and there's hardly a thing you can do in practice unless you have the time and resources on your hand which I DON'T RIGHT NOW.
I just keep telling this but no I am always so easily dismissed, just like the guy who tried to warn about the killer rabbit in MP Holy Grail movie. Because sometimes it gets as absurd as that obviously.
There's a lot more that people misunderstand but let's keep at this for now. Because I don't want to go too offtopic into things that were said elsewhere and what not. But don't presume my intentions by default. Like TTG thinking I did something on a game map deliberately while I worked off the beta version as a base and not whatever he assumed was the thing. Thus I didn't do any change I just kept that part the way it was.
it doesn't matter what it is, but it keeps happening. If correlation causation argument is going to apply, then it should also not be applied to me all the time as if I am the one doing something deliberately...all the damn time. Because the courts do apply it to me and so does he when he thinks I had this and this intention. No. That has to stop. This double standard hypocrisy. Because otherwise you're as bad as them. When you don't let me make the same argument against something, but you and the court can happily give judgements. I do not think so. I will make my own freedom in one way or the other and if you want to stand in my way I'd rather if you killed me than allowing me to die in THEIR HANDS. Which is worse than death.
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Also my words don't hold any weight? They hold weight like HEAVY STEEL!
Look at my track record, all the Unreal betas/alphas out there, the vast majority out there thanks to me or in some cases at least partly. Most of my Unreal theories got confirmed and who was it that discovered the hidden Unreal hub system, huh?
Do you think that if I have such a track record and detective skill inside the Unreal world, do you think it can *only* be limited to that? Think again before you say such things.
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