So what was supposed to be the best night of my life turned into the worst

If there were drinks there, she could've gotten drunk and did it. That doesn't really justify anything though, you should break things off and find a new person. You even gave them another chance, there's nothing else you can do. I'm sure you're a great person, go find other great people!

Let's forget about the rest for now, but KILLING YOURSELF? No @MsMidnight please it's not your only option! You are a great person unique from any other made great. You have been raised, cared for and have made your parents (assuming you have them so soooooorry if I'm assuming wrong!) go through so many sacrifices for what? For you to waste the great in you. OF COURSE NOT! If you thought that you are so very wrong!!! No one else is like you, no one else can be you, no one else can achieve what you can! If something didn't work out WHO CARES! Try again and if you already have to the fullest that's good enough! Do not give up only after you have given it the most and even after that push it past. You can do it and if it didn't go well you can't let it go over you. Mistakes are in everyone, done by everyone you can't just tick with a few mistakes. You are strong and what makes you strong is that you will hang in there. You are (guessing) probably not even half the age you'll live too! There's so much more still to do. You probably have a dream, you have beliefs you can't let that all go to waste you must fulfill. It can't just be like haha nope there is not hope. Come on midnight don't do it. And what makes you even better is that you ignore what everybody else says and you can still move on with your beliefs. Come on your life is special again DO NOT DO IT! There are better ways always think positive I guess he/she is just not good enough for you. Do not let it manifest! It's like those adware viruses that install themselves, pull out malwarebytes before it's too late do not lose your machine! Well in the end that's never the option and we all love you here life is worth living think positive midnight!!! <3

Yes, but I've been broken alot of times and I'm just starting to lose my purpose. Hell I don't even know if its worth living anymore

You know this could be a blessing in disguise. If your fiance has said and done something like that then it's a good clue that the relationship wouldn't work in the future. Now I know your still immensely hurt by what happened but things can get better. I've been treated horribly in pretty much every relationship I've been in and I have learned that humans can be horrible and evil beings. Slowly I learned that not everybody is like that because I myself was living proof. I could be a good person and treat others the same way I want to be treated. You just need to find the right person for you and I know its very difficult because I'm trying too. Personally I don't believe your fiance is the one for you if that happened.

Just stay hopeful, cheerful and happy.

Oh and you have the whole temp cheering for you on my behalf.

Ignore it keep going strong! As lulige said above couldn't of said what I was about to type better

http://www.lyricsfreak.com/b/bette+midler/the+rose_20017078.html Read these lyrics, I remember singing this in choir

NO! Don't start with a more saddening profile picture just try and think happy!

its not saddening though

Ik I just ment it's all black and white and then there is only the heart and she's like surprised lol

Killing yourself will not give you the satisfaction of outliving someone else's most outrageous fuck ups.

I'm really sorry about this. I can't imagine how it must feel to not only get rejected, but straight up insulted by your fiance, but killing yourself solves nothing. Try to think of things to still live for, no matter how silly they might be (a videogame, a character in a videogame, an idea, a thing that makes you happy, anything).

Think of this as a good thing. At least you know now that your fiance doesn't care for you. I can't imagine how distraught and disorganized your mind is right now, but try to hold on until tomorrow morning. If it turns out your fiance just kissed a dude in a drunken fit, forgive her, and move on. If she really does see you as a "placeholder," try your best to move on. It must be hard to let go of someone you've invested so much of yourself into, but if she won't invest some of herself for you, it's not worth it to continue your relationship with her. IMO, she sounds a little fickle (given your previous post), but I don't know her, so I can't say for sure.

Imagine yourself in the future, with a girl you're in love with who loves you back, and think of how glad you would be that you hadn't ended your life now. Life sucks ass sometimes, but things change. The way you feel right now won't be the way you'll feel forever.

You still have much to do in life. Don't let a shitty girlfriend convince you otherwise.

Please don't kill yourself.
If you really feel that bad, message me, or someone you trust.
It will get better, trust me.
I have had suicidal thoughts before... I've even attempted it.
It hurts. Don't do it.
It will get better, please trust me
@MsMidnight

Do you need to PM someone? I'm here to talk if you need it. Please think about the people around you before you do something as drastic as self harm or even suicide

Edit: And I heartily second everything that @Luckkill4u said

I'm prepared for some petty excuse and all, but naive me will probably forgive her and start the chain all over again

NO
Do NOT forgive her...
She treated you as a "placeholder" so why start the goddamn chain ALL over again...
As @B_E_P_I_S_M_A_N said above, you CANNOT kill yourself right now. You still have a really long way and it cannot end here...
Please don't do it...Think in your family, think about your friends! Think about NintendoFW!

Ok im sorry ill stop...
But seriously, i know you have mixed feelings right now and just a "Cheer up *smiley face* won't make you happy again...
Just try talking about this to someone who's close to you IRL. A friend, a familiar, etc...
And overall, just find someone else that loves and appreciates you as who you.
You are too special to just kill yourself about someone who didn't love. Just try and continue, please. Your family and friend would be pretty devastated about your death
You'll see someone either right now or in the future will love you. Just wait for it <3

Also, I should mention that I've been in an emotionally abusive relationship before and know what to look for. You most certainly want to get out of that relationship asap, especially if she's capable of coming right back to you and convincing you that the behavior she exhibits is ok. Trust me, you'll be so much happier if you break up with her and move on

For your own health (emotional & mental) never let ANY other human being have that kind of power over you. I know this is easier said that done. I've been in this same position as you many years ago. This is when I learned there is a differnece between wanting someone in your life and needing them. Wanting them is healthy, needing them is not. It is a matter of putting up boundaries. Establish them early on in your relationship and no partner will ever be able to do that to you again. No human should have to go through that kind of heart-ache. Generally people treat us they way we allow them to and the way we teach them to; that we find acceptable.

Check out this video on toxic relationships, it sounds like you're in one:

You're feeling terrible, and it's natural to feel this way. If you're like me, you're feeling betrayed and like your worth was taken away. Please don't take any drastic actions in this state of mind. Talk to someone you trust, in person or over the phone. Here's a hotline you can call if you don't want to involve someone you know: http://www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org/gethelp/international.aspx. That link is to the international page in case you're not in the U.S., but if you are just give them a call.

If you can't reach anyone, then distract yourself with something - TV, games, whatever. The point is to wait out the emotions until you're able to start working through them with a clear mind. It's really hard to do it now, because you're flooded with negative emotions and the brain chemicals that cause them. Don't do anything drastic, stay with us, and after this specific feeling passes (and it will, I promise) you can start thinking about what comes next.

Under no circumstance should you kill yourself.
No one is worth it to suicide for them.

You are a great person, you have your best friend and us here to support you.
Whenever you wanna talk with someone we'll be here.

I know that it's difficult for you now but try to focus on something else, like videogames or making homebrews.
Reading a book maybe?

Become better each day bit-by-bit.



P.S Do you want us to come there and beat her?