I met Beth at the light rail again around 7:20ish again. She was wearing jeans and a white shirt with a grey sweater on top. We got on the train and she was all giddy and stuff. I told her about my blog thingy and Beth was surprised of how serious the 20 days are for me. We get to school around 8:15ish and head for the food court. Brandon meets up with us round 8:45ish. We play cards up until 11:30ish and Brandon and I buy lunch. Beth gets lunch around 12ish after Brandon and I finish our lunch. We play cards for a bit until 12:20ish and Brandon and I head out for our last final of the semester, Philo. We get in and wait until the instructor gives us our test, 12:45ish. The test was only 30 questions and it seemed pretty easy for me. I finish first and head out to Beth around 1:00ish and Brandon comes soon afterwards. We play a couple of card games until 1:45ish and Brandon heads out, but he leaves us the cards. Beth and I head outside and play for a bit until 2:30ish and Beth heads to take her last final with other classmates. I head to the admission office and ask about my withdrawal from school and they just tell me to not sign up for classes and the system will take care of itself. I finish and head to the library around 2:45ish and stay posted for Beth. She tells me that she might take 1 hour or so to finish the test. So here I am, waiting for this kid and typing up my day (which hasn’t ended yet… I’ll probably do an update when I get home or something and add on).
Today was a good day, not a great day, but a good day. Why?? Because this morning, I still had lingering feelings of how I felt yesterday with Beth. And that she kind of seemed “too giddy” as if she was acting or something. But, I guess I can give Beth the benefit of the doubt and say that she was happy today. Other than that… today was a good day. There’s not much to say because I didn’t really do anything, except play cards. Today was a good day, but I hope my last day will be the best… I still feel that yesterday, Beth really killed the momentum for me. Maybe I’ll tell her about my current feelings after she’s done with her finals…
Edit: Beth left around 5ish after finishing her finals. I was hoping that we would get to play one last card game together, but its fine. Her life isn't bounded to mine not is it the other way around. I guess it's time to let the kids go now, huh?? It's kind of relieving actually. Now I can think for myself for a change.I feel somewhat content now, knowing that i might not go to school for at least a year. Knowing that Beth and Michelle are going to be okay for the next semester. Knowing that I had a great time with my friends. Tomorrow is going to be my last day... I'm not expecting anything big. I'm just expecting to play cards until we all leave, one by one...
Heeeeeeey, I’m officially done with my first year in college. How do I feel about this?? Well, I feel relieved with the chance that I might not be going to school for at least a year (hopefully for at least a semester). College is different from high school (obviously). It’s really hard to make friends and I think I got extremely lucky to have made friends with Michelle, Tamer, and Jhyerssa. Beth and Brandon… well I knew them from high school so they don’t count. My first semester was all about meeting new people and my second semester was more focused on maintaining that group of friends. I don’t think I would try my first year of college over again (maybe just to relive the memories). I can say that within this one year, I have changed. I’m more confident in myself in front of others. I feel that I’ve become wittier by making witty and mean comments. I feel that I’m more honest and blunt towards others (which can be a bad thing), but some people appreciate my honesty. But with the move to out of state, I think making friends will be very difficult for me. I won’t have the advantage of being a local and such. I don’t think I’ll ever offer my help to anyone else again (like how I have for Beth and Michelle). Maybe with this move, I’ll be more focused on myself than on helping others. That’s all I’ve ever been good for, just helping others. But, I don’t regret using my time to help out Michelle and Beth. I help them because I see that they do not deserve the crap they receive in life and that they want to help themselves improve. Maybe, that’ll be my only reason to help others when I go out of state. But as of right now, I just want to focus on myself…
I've been listening to this instrumental track recently. It's really soothing and calm. I love the the melody of the flute. I guess this song sums up how content I feel right now. With school done and all.
Today was a good day, not a great day, but a good day. Why?? Because this morning, I still had lingering feelings of how I felt yesterday with Beth. And that she kind of seemed “too giddy” as if she was acting or something. But, I guess I can give Beth the benefit of the doubt and say that she was happy today. Other than that… today was a good day. There’s not much to say because I didn’t really do anything, except play cards. Today was a good day, but I hope my last day will be the best… I still feel that yesterday, Beth really killed the momentum for me. Maybe I’ll tell her about my current feelings after she’s done with her finals…
Edit: Beth left around 5ish after finishing her finals. I was hoping that we would get to play one last card game together, but its fine. Her life isn't bounded to mine not is it the other way around. I guess it's time to let the kids go now, huh?? It's kind of relieving actually. Now I can think for myself for a change.I feel somewhat content now, knowing that i might not go to school for at least a year. Knowing that Beth and Michelle are going to be okay for the next semester. Knowing that I had a great time with my friends. Tomorrow is going to be my last day... I'm not expecting anything big. I'm just expecting to play cards until we all leave, one by one...
Heeeeeeey, I’m officially done with my first year in college. How do I feel about this?? Well, I feel relieved with the chance that I might not be going to school for at least a year (hopefully for at least a semester). College is different from high school (obviously). It’s really hard to make friends and I think I got extremely lucky to have made friends with Michelle, Tamer, and Jhyerssa. Beth and Brandon… well I knew them from high school so they don’t count. My first semester was all about meeting new people and my second semester was more focused on maintaining that group of friends. I don’t think I would try my first year of college over again (maybe just to relive the memories). I can say that within this one year, I have changed. I’m more confident in myself in front of others. I feel that I’ve become wittier by making witty and mean comments. I feel that I’m more honest and blunt towards others (which can be a bad thing), but some people appreciate my honesty. But with the move to out of state, I think making friends will be very difficult for me. I won’t have the advantage of being a local and such. I don’t think I’ll ever offer my help to anyone else again (like how I have for Beth and Michelle). Maybe with this move, I’ll be more focused on myself than on helping others. That’s all I’ve ever been good for, just helping others. But, I don’t regret using my time to help out Michelle and Beth. I help them because I see that they do not deserve the crap they receive in life and that they want to help themselves improve. Maybe, that’ll be my only reason to help others when I go out of state. But as of right now, I just want to focus on myself…
I've been listening to this instrumental track recently. It's really soothing and calm. I love the the melody of the flute. I guess this song sums up how content I feel right now. With school done and all.
