Well I met Beth at the light rail around 7:20ish for our last ride together… Beth was wearing short shorts with a thin black shirt. We both walked in the train together and talked about how we rode on the light rail for a year now. But luckily, Beth’s sister is also coming to our college next semester so Beth can ride in a car with her sister when I leave. We get off at our stop before the second train, and I give Beth a bag of Bath and Body hand sanitizers and the last Red Bull can that I will ever give to her. She thanks me with a hug and we proceed onto the second train to school. In there, we just talk about random things. When we get off, Beth and I just talk about how it’s my last day at school here. We hit the first street light, and (as the rebel that I am) I offer that we should cross the street while the red hand sign was still showing (because we’ve never done it before… and it was safe to do so anyways…) as our last walk together. Walking to school, Beth starts singing like her usual self. We hit the food court around 8:15ish and we see Brandon there already. We play cards for a bit and Beth tells me that she’s hungry. I offer to buy her a cinnamon bun, but she hands me money to pay for it. I get it and bring it back to Beth and we continue to play cards. Beth tells us that she’s too cold in the food court and we decide to go outside and play under the sun, sitting on tables. I point out that the campus is really dead because it’s the last day of finals and that no one usually has finals on the last day. We play until 10ish and Phillip arrives. Brandon announces that he has to leave early around 12ish. It hits 11:30ish, and Brandon decides to arm wrestle us guys. I go first and (obviously) lose against both Brandon and Phillip comically (I’m not the type to hit the weights, just the books). Phillip and Brandon go at it, and Phillip wins. We play up until Brandon leaves, and I go and buy myself something to eat (Chinese food). I eat while Phillip and Beth play Speed against each other. I finish and join in with them. Beth says that she has to use the bathroom and Phillip takes her there. I’m left at the table with my thoughts, just shuffling the cards over and over. The both of them come back after a while and Beth announces to us that she needs a pad. So we go to the nearest girl’s bathroom that dispenses the pads (which is back in the food court). Beth does her business and comes out all happy again. We walk Phillip towards the light rail area because he has to leave early too (1:20ish). I say my farewell to him and Beth and I leave. She decides to find her classes for next semester. We get into the building and Beth goes to a vending machine for chips. A faculty goes before her, but she has trouble getting her coins in so Beth offers one of her coins to the faculty staff (Awwww isn’t she nice). Beth gets her chips and we find her classrooms in no time. We head to the ATM so Beth can take out some money and stuff. Then we head to some red tables and sit. We talk about the reality of me leaving. The both of us are finally facing it. We talk until 2:45ish and Beth decides to wait for her ride. She buys a Pepsi on the way. We sit and wait for 3:30ish to come. While we wait, Beth sings to me (one of her many country music). 3:20ish hits and we head out for her ride. We stand and talk about me really leaving. We see her ride. I tell Beth to be a good girl and stuff, and Beth tells me thanks and pats me on the head (…). I watch her go to her ride and Beth tells me to stop and leave. I turn my back and I hear the truck leaving. I don’t turn back and look. I reach for my headphones and head to the food court (lounge area) and take a nap (4ish) to wait for my ride. I leave for the last time… around 5:45ish.
Today… was probably the most difficult one of the 20 days… It was difficult because I had to face the truth of my departure. The funny thing about the light rail ride was that they checked our passes on our last ride to school (which hasn’t be checked in a while now). I’m content, not sad. I know that I was going to have to leave sometime. I can now say that I am content in leaving Beth, Brandon, Phillip, and Michelle behind. Beth tells me that she has learned a lot from me. From my work habits to things about life in general, and I can say the same about her too. Before Beth left, she gave me her lotion. I always told her that I like the smell of her lotion because it has a “clean” smell and that it always reminds me of her. It would have been better if she gave me a full bottle of it, but I guess. A lot of thoughts are racing in my mind right now. There’s too much too say, but one thing is for sure. I’ve made a lot of great memories with these kids. I don’t regret spending my time with them. My last 20 days of school, I thank them for making it great. I told Beth and Michelle, for them to repay me back for all the help that I have given them, they have to text me every Friday at 6:50pm (their time) to let me know that they at least have thought about my existence and that I can be reminded of theirs.
I texted Beth “Thanks for the memories, kid. You really made me the person that I am today.”
And Beth texts back “Same goes for you too Uncle. Thanks for teaching me new things about life.”
And that’s all I can ever do for her. Beth is going to have to grow up now, without me. She’s going to have to go through college without my help. It’s not that she isn’t capable; it’s just that college is going to be tougher after I’m gone. But, Beth told me to trust her. Trust her that she is capable of taking care of herself. I guess I have to trust her in that then. I trust her that she will finish college and make me proud.
So this is it, huh… My 20 days really went by quick now that I think about it. I’ve made great memories in that time span. Another chapter of my life ends here. But I don’t want to move on. I still want to read back and linger about my time and memories here. But my brothers (from out of state) are calling me. They are calling me to go to them. Thus, I am forced to move on with my life. To leave this chapter closed. But… not forever. I shall read back at this chapter in my life, and think back. Relive this chapter in my life when I need to. I guess this is it, I will read back on this blog in the future and give my thoughts about these 20 days to see how much I have change. I won’t forget these 20 days. And I can’t forget these kids. These kids are the ones who made me the person that I am today. And that person is the person that I will carry on to my brothers.
“Thanks guys. It was fun while it lasted. I wish you guys good luck in life. I won’t forget you guys. Thanks, and farewell…”
What a bittersweet day. I think this song defines how I feel about today the most.
Edit: I was digging through my pockets just now, and I remember that I had Chinese food for lunch today. And my fortune from the fortune cookie... it made both Beth's and Phillip's jaws drop. It means whatever it means. I hope the changes that it states are good changes, and not bad changes. But all I know, is that I will be "happily settling".
Today… was probably the most difficult one of the 20 days… It was difficult because I had to face the truth of my departure. The funny thing about the light rail ride was that they checked our passes on our last ride to school (which hasn’t be checked in a while now). I’m content, not sad. I know that I was going to have to leave sometime. I can now say that I am content in leaving Beth, Brandon, Phillip, and Michelle behind. Beth tells me that she has learned a lot from me. From my work habits to things about life in general, and I can say the same about her too. Before Beth left, she gave me her lotion. I always told her that I like the smell of her lotion because it has a “clean” smell and that it always reminds me of her. It would have been better if she gave me a full bottle of it, but I guess. A lot of thoughts are racing in my mind right now. There’s too much too say, but one thing is for sure. I’ve made a lot of great memories with these kids. I don’t regret spending my time with them. My last 20 days of school, I thank them for making it great. I told Beth and Michelle, for them to repay me back for all the help that I have given them, they have to text me every Friday at 6:50pm (their time) to let me know that they at least have thought about my existence and that I can be reminded of theirs.
I texted Beth “Thanks for the memories, kid. You really made me the person that I am today.”
And Beth texts back “Same goes for you too Uncle. Thanks for teaching me new things about life.”
And that’s all I can ever do for her. Beth is going to have to grow up now, without me. She’s going to have to go through college without my help. It’s not that she isn’t capable; it’s just that college is going to be tougher after I’m gone. But, Beth told me to trust her. Trust her that she is capable of taking care of herself. I guess I have to trust her in that then. I trust her that she will finish college and make me proud.
So this is it, huh… My 20 days really went by quick now that I think about it. I’ve made great memories in that time span. Another chapter of my life ends here. But I don’t want to move on. I still want to read back and linger about my time and memories here. But my brothers (from out of state) are calling me. They are calling me to go to them. Thus, I am forced to move on with my life. To leave this chapter closed. But… not forever. I shall read back at this chapter in my life, and think back. Relive this chapter in my life when I need to. I guess this is it, I will read back on this blog in the future and give my thoughts about these 20 days to see how much I have change. I won’t forget these 20 days. And I can’t forget these kids. These kids are the ones who made me the person that I am today. And that person is the person that I will carry on to my brothers.
“Thanks guys. It was fun while it lasted. I wish you guys good luck in life. I won’t forget you guys. Thanks, and farewell…”
What a bittersweet day. I think this song defines how I feel about today the most.
Edit: I was digging through my pockets just now, and I remember that I had Chinese food for lunch today. And my fortune from the fortune cookie... it made both Beth's and Phillip's jaws drop. It means whatever it means. I hope the changes that it states are good changes, and not bad changes. But all I know, is that I will be "happily settling".
