Thats some dark shit...
Im not gonna lie life was rough for me too but my best suggestion is to find new people and have psoitivity
It may take time but because of this i met my special someone
I feel like school, back when I was actually in school, was more entertaining though, because of how much I get to interact with people, hang out with friends, and other stuff like that. All I get to talk to at work is my boring coworkers lol