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    Ok so the reasons I keep saying that negativity and realism are the same thing are:

    An online friend has told me that i'm not negative but instead that i'm realistic (not as an insult ofc), but since everyone else says that i'm negative I interpret the situation as both things being the same. I have several online friends (here) who are Indeed quite negative (or rather...
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    [Reflection] I'm never gonna change, but thats good!

    I have finally accepted the fact that im never gonna be able to change as a person, but thats a good thing since its good to be myself, even if objectively I should change as a person.
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    Don't you hate this?

    Dont you hate when you ask something online and even though your question is about a specific yet well-known topic it looks like the other users dont know what you are talking about bc what they say is vague, a generalization, or something unrelated to what you asked? Even though the question...
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    The "say good stuff about xdqwerty" entry

    So, since i'm often accused of seeking negative attention, this time in gonna try to garner positive attention (i know the way I worded this might be bad but you know what I mean to say)
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    Disconnection

    I don't know how to put it, but I think my mind and my consciousness are separate or something, because in my mind I always have thoughts... let's say, chaotic ones (whether it's depression, intrusive thoughts, crazy ideas, etc.), while my consciousness/body almost never reflects that. Is it common?
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    Placeholder title #3

    I think my mom is the only person I know who is honest at me and who treats me the way I deserve it, bc ever since I was a toddler she often gets angry at me when I do something wrong. Oh and half of my preschool and elementary teachers treated me like that aswell
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    Most generic adult cartoon ever made (by Google gemini and I)

    THE ULTIMATE CYNICAL PRODUCTION BIBLE: MANCHILD MAYHEM A. METADATA AND FOUNDATIONS OF BRILLIANCE * Foundation: Years on Air * Production Detail: 55 Seasons and Counting. * Network Logic (Arrogance): Proof of Stan Sloth's vision: a series that surpasses "plot-driven animation" through...
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    My early game Yu-Gi-Oh WCS 2011 deck

    Decided to rework my deck completely: Main Deck (Monsters) 1 Alien Assault Trooper 3 Armored Bee 2 Mist Valley Wind Master 3 Genex Searcher 1 Knight Commander 1 Gaia Knight, the Force of Earth 1 Chiron the Mage 2 Cyber Dragon 2 Reese the Ice Master 3 Genex Solar 1 X-Saber Airbellum 1 Mist...
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    A paradox

    (I know im not supposed to be letting my feelings out but I just couldnt beat the urge of posting this) Ok, so, people say that the way I can stop having the instinct that makes me not want to tell people irl about my feelings (aka being emotionally closed) is by seeking professional help, but...
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    Why do people say that bottling up your feelings is a bad thing?

    It seems to be working fine for me ever since I started bottling them up from online conversations since the other day, since Im not hearing my inner voice so often anymore and im also being treated like a normal user instead of an attention seeking kid
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    Placeholder title #2

    Maybe I should start pretending from now on that everything is fine in order to prevent people to get fed up and bc I myself got fed up of the repetitive replies. should I do that? Cuz I think I should
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    Why?

    If what my inner voice always says are lies, then why does it keep insisting about them? Is it bc of my life experiences or what?
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    Dunno what title to put here this time

    Ok so I think I found the way to cure my depression; i'll watch anime so I can get distracted and i'll insult myself when making mistakes so I become smart. That way my depression will be healed, or atleast in the long run!
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    Conflicted

    I'm kinda conflicted bc even though smoking and vaping wont do any good to me, I still wanna do them when I grow up bc I wanna feel better from my mood swings and depression
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    How can I stop venting?

    There are people here who are fed up of my venting (one of them is even a moderator), but I wanna vent bc I have to get these thoughts out of my head. Even though Im already on private coversations where I can vent, I still vent publicly and I wanna stop doing so. And no, i won't seek help
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    Alright I don't think that I will be retiring

    You see, I feel that i'm a bit... (Dunno if it is the right word this but it's the closest to what i'm thinking of) addicted to this site, feeling that I should be leaving. And anyways, one thing is feeling like you've said anything you could say and another thing is not knowing what to say half...
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    Im (semi)retired

    Dunno what to put here but lets say that I have been feeling more and more distant from this site and its people (specially since I got banned from the chatbox), and I havent been really using it that much other than for venting and for reporting issues with my software and hardware. And thus...
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    I found out how to become smart

    I think I found a way to become smart: im gonna insult myself whenever I make a mistake, bc my mom treats me like that and no one complains
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    Admit it!

    I'm not asking to be insulted, nor i'm seeking negative attention, i'm just wanting you guys to be honest with me and admit that i'm not smart. People here are always telling me i'm smart, but I don't believe them bc i'm always showing off my stupidity, and yet they still call me smart...
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    Reasons I dont wanna seek help

    I wanted to compile them all here to avoid stalling conversations over and over again or something like that Im too introvert and I have an instinct that makes me not want to tell people irl about my issues My therapist(s) tell everything to my mom, and when they dont she always asks what I...