@XAIXER flattering at least :'3 though artistic value in itself really doesn't exist, it simply comes from having many people like you? That seems to be what I can figure . . . @SG854 you are right, and its long to go yet . . . @Coto well how exactly do you practice feeling good inside?
Rather than focusing on what you can't do, maybe you could start to know more about yourself, what you do like, what you're good at (or what you feel you're good at, or could be), and find groups where people may as well be good at that. For me, it's machine research and software development.