hmmm...
I've never even thought about this before.. let's see..
socially, theres a couple of defining moments from high school I think I'll probably remember forever.
One time, sitting in class at one side of the room, on this side of the room is all my friends, and I guess the "popular girls"
I get up to talk to the teacher, and while I do this, I see the girls wave over one of the nerdy girls to sit in my chair.
while talking to the teacher I just assessed the whole thing, the nerdy girl knew she was taking my seat and that she'd have to defend it in order to impress the other girls, and those girls knew if I just sat somewhere else she had won
it's like something out of the fuckin discovery channel, and by this point in highschool, I was sick of these stupid little tests everyone was so giddy to be behind.
So I walked back to my desk, completely calm and said to her very quietly; "you can make me look like a jerk and tell me it's just a chair, but if you don't get off, I'm gonna throw you off then knock out all those bitches when they start screaming for me to calm down"
and she just looked straight at me and her understanding expression suddenly changed and said "Jeez! it's just a chair, fine you can have it!"
and all the girls gave their disapproving "guh"s and I got back to my work.
was I really going to do what I said? I never considered actually doing it, and do I think the nerdy girl even understood the situation and just took what I said as a threat and not actual help?
I dunno, but it was the point where I realized even if everyone else could already see all these little social tests set up for them, they all wanted to play by the rules.
and another time was I was just arguing with one of the girls in PE, eventually I said at some point something like "I really don't care what you think" and then she sorta broke the rules and said "yeah you do"
so then I looked at her, like what is this? does she really want to boast that? and I just went into a verbal frenzy where I basically said "the second I don't see you, is the second I forget you exist, and when I do see you, you're just a fuckin shell of a human. I don't even think of you, so why would I give a fuck what you think of anything?"
high school was fun.
I'd also say hiphop and video games have had a huge influence on me, and they continue to do so in just about everything I do