So as of today (17.12.2015) things have been going kinda shit. today my younger brother (12) raged at me while i was using the school computer. he tride to kick me, but he hit his knee into the lapto screen and it broke. rip computer 2014-2015. well, half of the screen is semi-usable, but fuck no. my ps4 controller broke recently while i was trying to mod it. also my ps3 controller was broken by my brother, by being abused. rip controllers.
I kinda feel sad, with no reason. idk how i feel sad and why. i just feel sad. sometimes i just sit down in my bed and cry, feeling that something is wrong with me. actually been feeling like that for quite a long tome now. it's just that i hate talking to people. every day my parents complain about something with me. it feels like they have dedicated their lives to do it. i always do something wrong, or forget to do it. i think they demant too much of me. i cant focus on shit when they are talking to me. they say the same stuff over and over again, and i still dont remember a single thing. i cant focus at school, and my teacher and parents say that it's just that i'm lazy and dont do what i'm supposed to do while i'm at school. there's finals, and my parentsangrily talk to me (or whatever it's called when they "rage" at you) because i haven't prepared for them.
i dont have anything to do on my spare time. not even playing videogames. "u hav 2 meny vidya gaem alredy u dont need no more" but i dont have any games for our ps4, our ps3 is banned and almost doesnt have any games. our ps2 is outdated, and i dont have a pc. so pretty much all i do as of now, is just to sit in my room browsing the web. i already have more than enough money that i have saved towards a pc, but my parents wont let me. although they migh do it in january.
now, when that's out of the way:
Yay it's snowing after almost all the snow melted. but there is a problem. it's piss cold outside, and i also hate wearing a lot of clothes (like those thick pants u use when it's cold). also no one is outside now, and my parents say "u r way 2 much inside u need 2 do sumthin outside nao" and i live 10 km away from the center of my city, so there's noting to do outside.
I kinda feel sad, with no reason. idk how i feel sad and why. i just feel sad. sometimes i just sit down in my bed and cry, feeling that something is wrong with me. actually been feeling like that for quite a long tome now. it's just that i hate talking to people. every day my parents complain about something with me. it feels like they have dedicated their lives to do it. i always do something wrong, or forget to do it. i think they demant too much of me. i cant focus on shit when they are talking to me. they say the same stuff over and over again, and i still dont remember a single thing. i cant focus at school, and my teacher and parents say that it's just that i'm lazy and dont do what i'm supposed to do while i'm at school. there's finals, and my parentsangrily talk to me (or whatever it's called when they "rage" at you) because i haven't prepared for them.
i dont have anything to do on my spare time. not even playing videogames. "u hav 2 meny vidya gaem alredy u dont need no more" but i dont have any games for our ps4, our ps3 is banned and almost doesnt have any games. our ps2 is outdated, and i dont have a pc. so pretty much all i do as of now, is just to sit in my room browsing the web. i already have more than enough money that i have saved towards a pc, but my parents wont let me. although they migh do it in january.
now, when that's out of the way:
Yay it's snowing after almost all the snow melted. but there is a problem. it's piss cold outside, and i also hate wearing a lot of clothes (like those thick pants u use when it's cold). also no one is outside now, and my parents say "u r way 2 much inside u need 2 do sumthin outside nao" and i live 10 km away from the center of my city, so there's noting to do outside.
