Coming back to school

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Tomorrow I go back to school, and I think it's okay, but for a while I feel strange, I do not know if it's because of the school I think it is not, but I feel things kind of empty, like I'm missing something , I do not know if I feel sad because I was not approved last year, then I'll have to repeat the second year of high school again, I never repeated so I did not call too much if it's just for once, so I guess what's bothering me is not It's okay with regards to school, but I feel like this for a long time, I do not talk this kind of thing to people, to tell you the truth I never talked about this with anyone because I feel very uncomfortable and I can not express myself, open myself For somebody, there's something really bothering me, I usually do things to try to distract myself, draw or just play some game, but I start to think about the things that are to come and I have no idea what to expect in the future, and that scares me.
To speak the truth at times like this I can not even say what I feel, what happens in me because everything is mixed, I can not describe, let alone express myself right is a bit difficult since I think this is the second or maybe The first time I do this in my life.
I just need to share this to get the weight I feel sometimes.
And let off some steam

If you have a writing error, I'm sorry my English is not good and my head is already a bit buggy, trying to write a text without using a translator would be a pain.
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I've been going through a similar situation mate. Don't feel alone, we'll all get through this, together.
 
thank you
I always look for solutions.
And one of those was watching something funny on youtube XD
 
this is the only thing that makes me happy sometimes, im felling depressed now this video showed up at the right time skip to 16:51
 
Sounds like you lack focus. Do stuff that is short term achiveable but is aimed at fullfilling a long term goal. For example school. Each lesson, each test, each class is doable at the time your there.the overall goal should be more than to just get trough school till its over. Be as social as possible. Wasting time in highschool years is the worst and setting your self for failure in adulthood. Imo kids should have a mandatory part time job at 15 enforced by the school. Weather or not the kid needs money or has a full scholarship to college. Dont go Dicking off about what youll do after school each day like video games or girls or just hanging outwith friends. The close friends u have now and the ones u may make b4 schools over will be the base friends youll have for the rest of your life. U might see how much harder it will be to make close friends with adult coworkers. The 22-30 year olds will be more focused on finding life partners and less of hanging with the bros. Some of those base friends will move away to another place to never be heard from again becides updates on what they eat via facebook. I personally dont keep long distance friendships if i know we will never be face to face again. No point. Wasted time that can be used networking the friends of friends till u have a new core base group of friends. Sometimes u gotta get out the comfort zone and try new things. Youll end up saying why did i wait so long to do this and regret will set in. Trust me ive been there. 15 first job was a arcade machine tech at a chuckycheese type place. Its better to learn the harsh truths about the struggles of life young and pop the entitled illusion that everything will work itself out. Youll magically have the decent job a wife kids and a house b4 30yrs old. You have to make shit happen not hope it will happen automaticly. People watch tv and think the lifestyle of the charters on shows is realistic. Each day is like a episode with a challange to overcome. It aint. Hope some of this makes some sense
 
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i know it
I've never had this thought that things are going to happen magically.
Making friends here where I live is a difficult task, I find few people who are really good, because most of them are "bandits", I have at most 3 friends ... 2 if I tell that one of them lives in the same neighborhood as me But we hardly see each other was a childhood friend, most of these school kids use drugs and only do shit, one of my friends was with people like that but after he saw everyone using drugs he stopped walking with these guys
 

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