I’m investing in the stock market every single month to maximise my future gains, and I’ve recently doubled my monthly spend. The pandemic led to an unprecedented economic shut down and nearly everything of value is on sale. Never let a good crisis go to waste - you gotta get while the getting’s good. With some luck it will pay dividends a few years down the line, slow and steady wins the race.
Don't think you should feel that way for trying to take care of yourself. How can you be any use to anyone else if you're breaking down yourself? And I've been trying to do the same. It's not easy, but it's rewarding each day you have some success.