My friends,
It was indeed a rough night. I reread the stuff I wrote to you guys during all of it because I don't remember some.
I'm very ashamed.
I think she knows how ashamed I am, she was concerned for me this morning. She let me talk and talked to me back. I asked her before she left if even though she wasn't in love with me, if she still loved me. She said she did, and she told me "I love you". I think she knows why I did what I did. Her dad was an alchoholic who eventually committed suicide. I actually think I got through a bit in my horrible actions last night, but I think most, if not all of it was cancelled out by how I did it.
She said she would call me twice a day to check on me and the kids while she is gone. She'll be back sunday night (it's friday morning here now.) I told her I would be friendly and do my best not to be obsessive.
PiNa, thank you specifically, your clarity is astounding, your advice, beyond reproach.
5uck3rpunch, thanks for the understanding and for staying close.
nintendofreak, don't worry, there will come a day when I'm funny again.
OSW, young people such as yourself around here continue to astound me, when me and my gen pass the torch, I hope it'll be made up largely of people like you.
tshu, a vote of confidence from you goes a lot farther than you can imagine, thanks.
Lookout, I confess, I couldn't understand 90 % of what you were saying last night, but I was coherant enough to appreciate your efforts to help, thank you very much.
.TakaM, thanks brother.
Finally kingeightsix, if all this doesn't work out, and you still wanna come date me, you don't have to cut your penis off, I wouldn't sweat a little thing like that.
(hahaha, still a little funny left to squeak out of my throbbing brittle head!)
I'll be around. Cheers guys.
edit: Linki & Lag, thanks to you too of course.
