I don't want reader to feel down, hence the spoiler tag. This post is pointless and full of bishing, I think. I was diagnosed (?) as depression last summer. I actually was always feeling down except when having fun with friends. A month-ish of clinic and some pills (damn those pills with side effects, I only took a few and doctor agreed I was getting too much side effect compared to how much pill is helping) And got over with... I thought Recently I don't find any interest in anything. Loss of appetite, getting drunk not pleasurable, games are not fun, and can't go to bed either. My visiting frequency of gbatemp has drastically decreased, for recently I usually find 10+ pages of new posts opposed to 5~7 previously. I wish I could take my brain out, cut off parts that are causing depression, and stick it back. I am really losing the will to live. The only reason I'm living is because I don't want my family and friends get sad over my death. Yeah, I was really excited about GBAtemp tourney, but now the registration is open I'm like "meh who cares". I hope my depression is seasonal -summer only- although having this every year is quite a horror as well. All I want now is a sleeping pill and something alive to cuddle with.