Lately it's been hitting me on how different I used to be back then when I was in other social media sites. It all goes well, sometimes it lasts a few years until a mistake happens that was out of my control and there I go abandoning it, leaving behind what was once my hard work, my passion, my pureness, and the people and friends I used to love. It's been happening so much with so many sites I have come and go that now everything feels numb. I love it here, but I can't deny the fear remains that one day the cycle happens again and might ruin another group of friends I wanna call family, but why keep calling that if any day, a downfall might happen. It's not easy going back to some of those sites with an apology, I wish it were simple, but life ain't like that sometimes. Someone last year was right about something, I might have attachment issues, blaming myself that I could've been better and found a way that kept everything that made me happy. And just like that, a few months later, an incident happen where I just had to abandon everything once again and create another identity, being alone again in another new environment. I know I can't be on social media forever, but I wish for now on I don't have to have a bitter taste in my mouth and more guilt building up every time I make the same sacrifice. The only site where I finally had a good end was TikTok 3 years ago, but even then my account got hacked so I had to make the best of it of how I could end. If only I had one more opportunity to fix all my mistakes and finally become a free man.