does anyone else have to do stuff like this? whenever i'm with a particular person (any person in my life) be it a relative or friend, I have to act a particular way, taking care not to offend him/her, trying to remember what they find funny and amusing so that i foucs on that. This is different with every single person i know, and i'm tired of it. I wish i could meet someone and talk to them without worrying what I'm saying... and talking about the things that i myself am actually interested in. Will i ever find someone who actually cares about me too? someone who'll ask how i'm doing and actually mean it? In conclusion: i'm tired and i'll probably die alone. end of rant.