Let me just say that I'm glad that I can post inside a forum website that can be off-topic without the risk of getting banned nor getting scowled at by others; sadly I can't remove the opinions of those people who will ridicule me since that's normal behavior. I must warn you that the stuff I'm going to type is 'RAW' meaning that most of it is real and graphic. I have been having fetishes ever since I was young, usually the sniffing boys butt syndrome came into play ever since I was around 9 or 8. I won't add details who butts I have been sniffing let just say they were very close to me. It was just a phase during our boredom usually it happened inside the bathroom. Around the age of 13, I became more aroused during puberty which I did look up at porn sites. Which was interesting since it didn't arouse me like it usually does to other young male adolescents. I came across some 'watersports' websites that actually given me an instant hard-on. I observe and yearn for its content which is the first time I learned about download torrents; I started to look at videos of women urinating and all sorts of pee-play. I even done this quite frequently, hiding my profile being discreet about it. That's when the urge of this new thrill became more dominate inside my teenage years as I started to watch videos of 'scatology, watersports, flatulence, and toilet-play' which I did enjoy moments of it; I even rped with a few people about this stuff. Right now at the age of 21, revealing these fetishes to my father who happens to be an apostle (Note: I didn't reveal these fetishes to him until the age of 20, he came into my life at the age of 13 which is a whole different story) he tells me that these fetishes I have been seeing is wrong and sick. Also it will remove my love-interest for a women which its happening right now. It's not the first time that I had tried to remove my fetishes which I eventually slip up and go back to them eventually. I'm not looking for any professional help here! I'm looking forward what you people think I should do in order to stop this problem from occurring again. So far I stop downloading videos of that stuff however I somehow make my way to back to the websites. This subject is very new to other people however I need to get this off my chest since I do want children but keeping these fetishes isn't going to make a relationship happen any time soon. Thank you for patience for reading this stuff, also replying back.