" - Dec-14-07 - Latest - (stoi)
Lots of things have been said, and done over the past 48 hours, and i dont realy know what to say about any of it.
Apart from i am very sorry that any of this happened. and you can get some sense of what happened from this post in the forums
http://www.blackcats-games.net/forum/index...?showtopic=7424
I apologise for everything that has gone on.
Merry Christmas
From Stoi and the rest of the Staff (those that are still with us)"
QUOTEBelieve this. Dont believe this, stay, or leave, back me and the site, or call me shite all over the net, I cant do anything to make you do any of those things, or stop you doing any of those things. but here is my 2nd attempt to bear my soul, this isnt my whole life story but close lol.
My Mam dies in a car crash in America quite a few years back now, so i got a trust fund from that, a lump sum and so much a month, its not silly money but it does tide us over ok.
I am Unemployed, i wont lie and never have, and because of that i cant get a CC or DC, i am also in quite a bit of debt from a house reposession a few years back. But if i was making so much money, dont you think i would have paid the debt off by now, and yes i still get letters to this day threatenng me with crap. and i still cant get a card to shop online.
because of this i use PAYPAL, now its the same account as the donations go in, but what everyone doesnt realise is, If we do buy anything at all with paypal, i put the money back into the paypal account from my trust fund.
so yes i have got an HDTV, good PC, IPOD etc but thats bought with my trust fund, not from the donation money, i did tell people this but the truth nearly always falls on deaf ears and they just hear/remember what they want to hear/remember.
I also live in a council house, cant drive, no car (i cant afford a car) 2 holidays in 5 years, both to caravans 60 miles away, and one of those my dad paid for.
So if im making £1000`s every month, why would i be living like such a shit, and not living it up and buying cars and real estate all over.
now for what i did make.
1st 2 years i ran blackcats on my home PC, obviously because of this cost was negligable but i also only got £40 in donations in that time, that was the same person 2 years running btw, donating £20 each time.
My connection got cut off at the time the hobbit was out for the xbox, i know because i was seeding the scene release by myself, so left a lot of leechers in the shit and i felt terrible (i will always remember that), was offline for about a year, came back and put it back on my pc again, then went to tbdev a week or so later.
but the pc i was on just was not good enough, 500mhz sony laptop, so went to sweden on a shared host and got a domain.
again though the cost was negligable, i did pay a little but nothing to go "hold on, why the hell am i doing this".
but that crashed at 2000 peers on the server.
Now this is the only time i have ever pleaded for donations, as in sent a PM out,
so we moved to hong kong which wasnt cheap on a dedicated server, in this time DK came and went as did his tracker, the international bw was 1mbit max and that was shared, and thetracker struggled to get 11,000 peers, so no way we could grow.
by that time i had enough to move, so we moved to where we are now, 2 top of the range servers at the time, setup and monthly payment were a lot more than Hong Kong but they were a lot better.
then we got hacked last december (and again this december, bar bloody humbug lol)
for months i was making LESS (yes less) than the servers cost per month, but im to proud to ask for donations every month like some sites do, so i paid this out of my own pocket. I think james might have sent a pm out sometime in the middle of this asking for donations because he heard my plight, but i never gave him the go ahead to do it, he just done it.
I also told the staff that i had paid for the servers for a whole year up front, this was just a ploy to see who i could trust, but surprisingly no one let that slip, until now of course when it is to late.
when i handed them over to james they were paid up to jan 1st though, so basically he never had any servers to pay for at all when he was in charge, and he knew this.
when i left i think the month before i got maybe £1500 to £2000 tops, which i was going to use to go co-location offshore because i was getting paranoid then, but then oink got done and i deceded enough was enough and needed to get out, i was ultra paranoid, i could not eat or sleep, everytime a car past i was ready to bolt out the back door. i just thought there is better things in life than being like this 24/7 so i handed over the reigns.
there is probably a hell of a lor more i could write, and tbh there are probably still some questions that remained unanswered, but this is the 2nd time i have wrote this in 12 hours, 1st time on FST but they deleted the thread, not because of this post but the first post accusing me of all sorts of shit.
btw here is an email from james, and a reply from me, just take note, i could have doctored this just the same as they could have doctored the IRC. (i didnt but i could have)
From James:
well i was never going to keep the servers just was seeing what people would say/do
ie @@@ and @@@(guess i was just seeing who my friends were)
well anyway you have seen what i can do with the site andd i dont mean shuting the servers off i mean with the amount of donations
i would be willing to stay and keep that in motion, but i would want a little something for doing it.........as you can see i can make bctas tracker earn XXXX-XXXX a month
not sure after this if i realy want to stay tho @@@ after the threats @@@@ has made( not that he worries me)
@@@ has had a prob with me since i acused him ages ago(must have hit a sore spot i guess lol)
Reply From ME:
ive just woke up and havnt realy read the rest of this, so will probably reply later.
but its never been about the money to me mate, i would have been happy with server getting paid, you have made it into a money thing, and i never got XXX-XXX a month, but then i didnt push for that, i was quite happy with what i got.
i also notice that you never made 1 suggestion regarding the benefit of the site while i was away, it was all ££££££££, so yeah, i think i know who my real friends are.
and you have left me in the shit with this prize draw as well havnt you, and saying as though your not coming back, i might a well disable your account now.
btw, the prize draw i will honour, and it will be drawn on christmas eve, but whatever prizes have been discussed before might have to be revised. it will be at least 1 console though, but 5 im not to sure about.
take this as you see it, if you want to slag me off do it on anothr site, if you do not want to stay here, then never log back in again. if you never want to donate again, dont donate, if you never want to upload dont upload just get sp to go all the work for you, but then thats not realy a community spirit.
we have come back from things like this in the past, granted not as bad as this, so let newbs and james and louie do what they want in the future, dont be surprised though if you see another tracker popping up soon, i dont know their plans the cash might already be gone, but i want nothing more to do with them.
i want them to get on with whatever they have planned, and let me to get on with whatever we have planned, and lets move on, stick with us, or go, your decision.
And im very very sorry about all this mess, i trusted them and they stabbed me in the back. oh well you live and learn.
Merry Christmas to everyone