Alone....

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  1. VVoltz
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    I typically have some cool posts, but...
    I feel alone...., and I mean for real.
    Right now I'm living in America, and it's the first time I'm away from my parents and friends.

    I can almost read it already: "What a fag" and I truly don't care, it is my nature now to be as open and communicative I can, and I thing this will do for now....

    I've been living here for a whole year now, with my aunt and her family, an uncle and a cousin, she is 16, and no, she is not "teh hot", they are great, but they are going trough lots of problems so the atmosphere here isn't the best. I'm starting to feel terrible.... [​IMG]
    No friends here, no g/f she is in Bolivia, our situation isn't clear, she is suppose to come so I'm truly faithful with her... and I'm really starting to feel a lot down lately....
    The only thing I'm doing here is an Internship at the GWU, unpaid, I teach on saturdays, I'm looking for a job, but no news lately...

    I'm alone and I feel.... depressed.
    Well, that's it. Laugh all that you want, had to take it out of my chest. And no, I'm not joking, no backfire on sarcastic jokes.

    Edit: Typos, and no, I'm not emo, just wanted to share, that I'm starting to feel depressed.
     


  2. mthrnite

    mthrnite So it goes.

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    I'm about 7 1/2 hours drive. If you get a free weekend. Come on down!

    Seriously, PM me when you can, and lets get together. A nice road trip does wonders to clear the mind.

    In the meantime, everything is transition. Transition in, transition out.. you'll get through it.

    And you really ought to come down for a weekend!
     
  3. Issac

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    oh man, i'm sorry!

    I know the feeling, kind of... depression and feeling alone.. though i've lived at home all the time, and never been outside sweden...

    but i still know the depression, and how it feels to feel alone. just keep your spirit up! think happy thoughts!
    Listen to your favourite music... or maybe try something new, to aid you...
    I listen to one song (which it feels like i've spammed around here [​IMG]) when I'm depressed... (and when I'm happy.. but it works for me when im down).



    EDIT:
    and since i've just written the lyrics down, exclusively (there's actually no way to find the lyrics online! [​IMG] (in japanese that is)) I will post them here, with translation:
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    A hope in mind
    is secret, and
    a worn out smile reflects
    in a mirror.
    Bad dreams
    go right away and
    the world was destroyed
    when I woke up.
    We eat the dirt.
    Make up meanings.
    Seduce the reasons.
    Maintain the intellect.
    Want madly,
    embrace the solitude tightly
    and the memories I never forget.
    A profile I never forget.

    Write the facing time
    with the fragments.
    Save them and pile up
    their first cries of births.
    Devote myself solely
    to writing to figure out
    the changing prediction.
    Ones who changed by it.
    False name and a careless face
    echoes right before my eyes.
    Words of disqualification.
    Will they reach me?
    I see the end now.
    Let's go home.
     
  4. jargus

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    Riiight...

    Anyways, I'd suggest you go out and make some friends in the local area.
     
  5. VVoltz
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    I don't know what to say but, thanks. That really means a lot to me. Seriously.
     
  6. kellyan95

    kellyan95 Banned

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    Well, that sucks. I suggest you do something about it now, not let it go any further. Like....well, I'm not the person to ask, but you need to do something
     
  7. enigmaindex

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    Whenever i feel like shit, i go ride my bike. (Yeah i bmx =]) It just really clears my mind and works wonders. So in your case just go do something you love doing. Try not to think about it too much and cheer up. Go do something extreme or something you have never done before. I am going sky diving for the 2nd time soon and im only 16. So yeah.
     
  8. Sonicslasher

    Sonicslasher In Law we trust.

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    dam dude, i know what you mean....except I've never had friends (I'm home schooled) and I have way to much time on my hands with nothing to do.
     
  9. Ace Gunman

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    Aw VVoltz, try not to feel down. We've all been there, bud. This type of thing is natural. You're away from your original home and loved ones, so you're homesick, and that's just leading into this depression. But I guarantee the more you dwell on it the worse it will become. Best to get a change of scenery, try some new things, take your mind of your problems. Or perhaps even do the opposite, embrace some old favorites. And at the end of the day, the GBAtemp community is here for ya' too, don't forget that. [​IMG]
     
  10. Linkiboy

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    Make your family get a webcamera and keep in touch with them, and get a local girlfriend if your current one doesn't get her ass down here quick.

    also vvoltz i will be your brother from now on, your days will dramatically worsen or get better
     
  11. mthrnite

    mthrnite So it goes.

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    GET.. YOUR.. ASS.. DOWN.. HERE!
     
  12. Infinitus

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    Remember that you have a loving community that are always there for you.
     
  13. VVoltz
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    Thanks guys, seriously.
    I thought everyone would make fun of me.
     
  14. kellyan95

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    If you had an emo sig/avatar, we would have.

    Always have a goal, or you will end up wearing your misery like a favorite shirt
     
  15. test84

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    Iran, Tehran.
    i'm with u.
     
  16. BoneMonkey

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    where in the US are ya from ?
     
  17. Shinji

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    *looks at sig and ava* [​IMG]

    Dont worry VVoltz, we always be with you. Community FTW! How can Linkiboy be your bro if I'm already your bro? That would make Linki my bro? [​IMG]
     
  18. VVoltz
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  19. RiotShooter

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    ha ya everyone goes through rough periods in life. it sucks. but ya just do things you like and make friends, be crazy. work out or sumthing. just do sumthing to clear ur head.
     
  20. Ace Gunman

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    Actually RiotShooter has a point. Exercise is actually a well-documented cure for depression.