Yeah, that makes my heart warm and fuzzy. But that's also a big part of the bad feeling about my life situation. To be able to take things further with her, I'll have to get out of my current life situation and that's why I'm not happy with it
I need a new job, and a new place to live, and a lot of stuff to be able to deal with immigrations. Then it's a waiting game, up to 2 years, before you get a decision if you get residency or not. So it's a crappy feeling,.
Ok,that is of course understandable.
You can try instead of "waiting" to turn this into a state of "Looking forward to the coming".
If I understand you correct,all is set to "leave" your current Life and go ahead to the next "Step".Great.
Why torture yourself with waiting, if it is not changeable to shorten the time ?
In this times we live you have enough communication "options" to stay in touch.
Use and try not to waste too much time and energy on your current job.It is as it is at the moment.
Try to accept it and go on please,you have the prospect of something else.Something that many people are denied ....
Good Luck.