get the surgery man. you will not be thrown into jail for failure to pay. your credit rating will be shot. you should declare bankruptcy after getting the surgery, then talk with an IRS official to see what it takes to get back on your feet....again i am sorry but dont act like you are a goner
Not really sure what to answer to that...as if things were that easy. If that were the case, every single person that needs a serious procedure / transplant / etc, would just say "operate me doc!", get the surgery, and everything would be happy and awesome.
Doctor: "Heres your bill"
Xuphor: Nope! I ain't got no money to pay! See ya later doc!
That is a
fantasy world.
Now for the topic at hand:
As some people already said on this topic, I too am terribly stupefied that I didn't find this topic before. I am very sorry that you had the bad luck of having this fucking stupid gene disease.
I have to say two things to you Xuphor, and although one of them may sound controversial, I simply wish to help you in your fight against this terrible disease:
1- I have to say that you are very courageous to be the kind of person you are. If I were in your shoes I would freak out, I would kick everyone in the face, and I would overall make an idiot out of myself for the fear of dying. Many people say to often that they could "handle it", or feel confident that they could cast that "passing away" fear aside, and be winners.
The
reality here, is that if many people were confronted with this crap, they would loose it, just as much as I would. They wouldn't have your control over the situation, and neither would they accept things like you have.
Also, I'm requesting that you read this following sentence, and take to heart. Why? Because it might not be worth much, but It's damn
true:
I admire you very very much, the way you handle things, and try to be less of a "burden" to everybody, even refusing financial help. God only knows how much you struggle to live everyday, and even breathing must be a challenge to you. You are a very strong person indeed. If more people were like you, the world would be an infinite amount of "better place" to live on.
2- Even though I admire you for this, I am one of those "hopeless" hope believing persons. I am a pessimist in other situations, but when it comes to this, I like to believe in hope like everybody else.
As such, I do not wish to offend you with what I am about to say, nor do I wish to cause you any further harm. But I just couldn't be true to myself If I didn't say that I disagree with 1 of your points of view. Which one? The sensitive one:
I wish you would accept help. I wish you could have your hope re-opened and accept the idea of people helping you in order to get that transplant. I believe many people would open their hearts after reading your story, and many people would be willing to help.
Now I know what you are thinking. I read your post. I know you "
Really do not wish to be remembered on the news/around town/on GBATemp
as the person/member that only lived because of a generous donation, either by a celebrity or a kickstarter thing."
I get that. I respect it.
But why am I still in disagreement with that particular part?
-Because you will
NOT be remembered as the person who only lived because of generous donation.
-You will
NOT be remembered as the member who survived because of a kickstarter thing.
-You will not become that "poor" person you fear. You will become it if you
LET IT.
Would your story be on the news? Probably. Would the title be: "Person "X" lives because of person "Y" donation!"? Even more probable.
Would you be talked about on GBA regarding how you survived because of people helping? Yes, you likely would.
Would you be "somewhat" known in your town as the person who almost died were it not for generous people? That too would be easy to happen.
But here is what you need to remember:
Those people are
IDIOTS. Those people NEVER went through your awful situation. Those people have lived EASY lives ALL their lives, and never had to care about anyone else other than themselves.
The only ideas, the only thoughts that really matter, are the ones of your
family. The ones of your
closest friends. The ones that are
by your side, and can see your suffering each day. The ones who can see how
STRONG you are, and how what goes on the News, or GBAtemp, or the Newspaper is a
LIE and is only there to get ratings and profit.
The ones who truly matter, will never remember you as that "poor" person. They will remember you as that incredibly strong person. They will
SEE you as that person who had such overwhelming principles, that he/she was able to discard his/her own life for them.
You say you will be remembered as someone who just survived because of something? I know I'm not either your friend, your family, or anyone close to you, but:
I
won't.
Your family
won't.
You true friends
won't.
Anyone with a little compassion and not just posting here the be well seen by the community,
won't.
Every single person who had hardship on their lives
won't.
And more importantly,
YOU shouldn't think that way of yourself.
So please, I am sorry about the long post, and I am sorry if I am hurting you with my principles and whatnot. But from a person who has never met you, and likely never will:
Please reconsider your thoughts. Please
accept financial help. Please, don't let hope die. Let people help you.
Whatever your answer is, I will respect it and keep my thoughts to myself, I promise.
And never forget:
YOU ARE STRONG!
