If your parents and family view you as being a failure unable to get a damn job, either because of how you interacted with them in the past or because of some "disability," don't ever break that perception because the moment you do, they expect more out of you, and then you have to keep contributing to society unless if said people get so sick they depend on you, where, at that point, you can shove it in their face and show to them how much you don't need them anymore, and potentially leave them for dead.
Parents who can't truly love their children is one of the worst things I have to say I've had to endure up to this point. I have everything I could want materially, and frankly, based on what I've been told, once my parents are dead, they told me that I have an inheritance waiting. The only problem now is that I have to work for the next few months at a job that, so far, has been uninteresting and frustrating at the same time in my first two days on the job. With how much shit has been going south for yours truly being stuck at home with my parents during what is admittedly a trying time for everyone, I'll say this:
Never go in debt just because someone promises you that they'll help you if you try to go to college when the passion isn't there and all you want to do is separate from said people in my case and never talk to them again.
If I only had friends who were understanding of yours truly wanting to do whatever the fuck he wants because there's no rules to fucking life at the end of the day, and that whatever BS you believe won't matter in the end anyways, and that we should just live and let live and tell those who'd tell us how to do what we want to do to fuck off (I'm not talking advice, of course, but people who say that "X is just like Hitler/Stalin/Pol Pot" and get offended when people exercise their free speech in a way that offends them, and no, I'm not necessarily talking about SJWs/TERFs as much as I am hypermoralism of American Christianity, but much of what pisses me the fuck off about the former applies to the latter, something I don't think pretty much everyone in my family understands).
I'm at the point where not even a certain older brother who I thought would be understanding of how I feel to cut me off because he's starting to become more snowflake-y than anyone else in my family. I'm stuck in a world where I can't just be myself, and I have to suffer through a job that, so far, can't decide whether it wants to be frustrating or so slow and boring that they assume that it's a lot of people's first jobs on the first two days they're working there.
On the bright side of things, if I can keep my job for the next month and maybe a half I'll be able to take care of the biggest debt of all that I owe in no due time, with the 2nd largest one (my car, to be exact) being the next one that could also go down quick since I haven't got my stimulus bill or my tax return atm. After that, it'll only be $3,000-something more and then I'll be free at last to quit and never contribute to society and to shut myself in and never interact with anyone who can't make up their mind.
Suffering like this is why I doubt I'll ever have a family. I don't want to create more humans to experience the pain and suffering of life. Maybe my perspective will change one day, but I'm getting sick of trying to be social with people who I simply don't share much in common with in terms of personality and worldview, the latter which they consider to be important more than I ever would!
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