Probably that is a questions not many people ask themselves... or perhaps it is?
No idea... perhaps it's just socially unskilled people, or perhaps it's pretty common actually.
The thing is I have this niece that I think I barely know.
Why you ask? (ask? lol, probably you already TL;DRd this shit)
Well, I live way too far, I perhaps meet my brother and his family once a year and so... I barely really know what kind of person she is growing into.
Does that matter? Certainly not, but I feel like a shitty uncle.
All I ever do is bring stupid gifts that I don't even know if she would like. Kind of as saying "sorry" I guess?
Why can't I be bothered to make an effort? Yeah, I feel guilt but I don't care enough.
I think I can at least hold some conversation when I am physically there, not much anyway.
The worst part is she really tries to bond with me, she sends me messages from time to time... stupid kid messages, but sure she is trying to say "hello" in some way, or "don't forget me" or something. Yet the shitty old fart I am I kind of find them awkward, annoying and kiddish, well she is a kid what might you expect.
I would say it breaks my heart seeing her try, but given that I end up ignoring most of it, it would probably be better suited to say "I have no heart" at all.
Perhaps I am not a peoples person, sure not a kids person... But what a shitty uncle anyway.
Damn, shouldn't write blog posts when I am half drunk.
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