usually i don't rant or vent to people. i like to keep things buried inside... for a good reason though. that's because most of the things i could vent or rant about are bad things, and shouldn't be known. that doesn't mean i'm a killer though! i swear. hehe
lately it's been getting really hard for me to write music. and i can't tell why that is! i don't know if it's because the beats i'm using are trash and don't appeal to me, or maybe it's me losing that spark in lyric writing? i sure hope not. i have a dream, to become someone i feel proud of. and while i'm not really... close... i feel like this is as close as i'm going to get and i hate it.
my lyrics lately, have been really sad... and depressing. and i'm not per say complaining about that, i'm totally fine with doing sad shit because i know how it can turn out. but see, i can't even write good when i write sad. but at the moment i can't write happy, either. i have no gangster life to write about either, and it makes me upset.
i guess i just got nuthin to write about. nothing that makes me feel like i'm using my talents efficiently, that is.
i'm also afraid that i'm going to start flunking in school again. lately, i've been smoking a lot more weed than usual. it's almost daily, and last time i started using daily i almost failed highschool courses. i don't need that
i just gotta make the right decisions, as they come along. i'm tired of planning ahead all the time honestly. it's hard work! always thinking about what's gonna happen next... what this girl's gonna say... what this idiot's gonna do... how this and that'll play out. it's a lot, dude
lately it's been getting really hard for me to write music. and i can't tell why that is! i don't know if it's because the beats i'm using are trash and don't appeal to me, or maybe it's me losing that spark in lyric writing? i sure hope not. i have a dream, to become someone i feel proud of. and while i'm not really... close... i feel like this is as close as i'm going to get and i hate it.
my lyrics lately, have been really sad... and depressing. and i'm not per say complaining about that, i'm totally fine with doing sad shit because i know how it can turn out. but see, i can't even write good when i write sad. but at the moment i can't write happy, either. i have no gangster life to write about either, and it makes me upset.
i guess i just got nuthin to write about. nothing that makes me feel like i'm using my talents efficiently, that is.
i'm also afraid that i'm going to start flunking in school again. lately, i've been smoking a lot more weed than usual. it's almost daily, and last time i started using daily i almost failed highschool courses. i don't need that
i just gotta make the right decisions, as they come along. i'm tired of planning ahead all the time honestly. it's hard work! always thinking about what's gonna happen next... what this girl's gonna say... what this idiot's gonna do... how this and that'll play out. it's a lot, dude
