No title. i just cannot think of one

Hi, Forum.

I just want to say this blog will not be like my normal happy cheery self. i'm moody these days.

So.. lately i have been having many Real life issues, and internet issues.
I've been arguing, fighting, getting mad over nothing.
I have been acting childish.
I have been acting like a total asshole.
I've made some good friends on this site. this past week. i lost the one who matters the most ot me from this forum.
He knows who he is.

So... When i have internet issues.
It makes my life harder. i have become sad over silly internet drama.
But you should see me right now typing this up. i'm almost crying.

It does not help that tonight i didn't sleep. So that makes me more hard ot get along with and piss off more tempers.
It does not feel good. not one bit. But i'm not leaving the forum. i'm hooked. like...... ugh..... nevermind.
I've been a complete dick. so i am saying sorry publicly.
Sorry to phoenix Goddess, you and i have been neck to neck. i'm going ot take all the blame like i should. i'm sorry.
If you want me to leave you alone. i will.

I've also been moody, like i can be sad then happy. not sure why? hormones? not sure.
But if i act weird that could be why.

The point of this blog was just to apologize.
To every temper.
I'm going to try and fix myself for the better.

I also noticed my behavior going downhill aswell.
This is not a good thing.
And me being addicted to this forum, the internet.
If i get banned (Which i'm not close to) i will have nothing to do with my life and may get depressed.

So.....
I will get to the point.
Sorry phoenix goddess
Sorry Vulpes, Toni.

And mthr. sorry for how i made my first impression.

You guys don't have ot forgive me or even care or understand.
I felt the need to just speak my mind. my sadness, my problems.

Yeah.

~iFish[sn0w]

Comments

lolzed
Fix your act man ;)

Then maybe ant will let you go back in GNA

(hugs ifish)

and remember,internet is internet,IRL comes first.(and internet is not a reason for suicide,nothing is ;) )
 
prowler
[quote name='ifish' post='2977451' date='Jul 12 2010, 01:44 PM']I was not talking about killing myself :mellow:[/quote][quote name='ifish' post='2977433' date='Jul 12 2010, 01:37 PM']If i get banned (Which i'm not close to) i will have nothing to do with my life and may get depressed[/quote]
 
scrtmstr
everybody goes through those periods mate, i've had them to, to the point where I lost almost everyone.
Take a good nap, eat and drink something, pull yourself together, take a deep breath and come back as the ifish you were.
good luck mate, you'll get over it.
 
jalaneme
you are depressed over the internet connection? try being in my shoes you would want to kill yourself instantly, i have constant pain in my back, joints. feet, wrists, stiff neck and i have ibs problems, how hard do you think it is for me to walk i don't want to even talk about it as it upsets me so much :( you are young you will get over it soon.

i know what you mean by getting spontaneously angry over nothing, i get that too, it's a symptom of depression unfortunately, the only thing you can do is get some help from your doctors for it, i've had to do the same, i am constantly taking pills for my conditions so i live a depressing life, so cheer up mate, there are way more things to cry over apart from the internet.
 
raulpica
Cheer up! It's just a phase of your life. It's normal :P

You'll get over it, eventually!
 
Veho
[quote name='jalaneme' post='2977474' date='Jul 12 2010, 02:56 PM']you are depressed over the internet connection?[/quote]
Nope. Read it again.
 
Costello
cheer up little buddy.
and it's funny that you mention being annoying, because when people your age hang around long enough, its like watching a kid grow up, you actually start to see improvement over time :D
i remember people like dice in the early days, well the man he is now, who could have told?
 
G
Wow...
Relax. It's the internet. Don't take it too seriously. You won't get banned.

Honestly, I've been looking for other ways to waste time on the internet other than browsing GBAtemp and random tech sites (Gizmodo, Engadget, etc.) I spend too much time on GBAtemp. Videogames aren't even appealing anymore when I'm bored.

...If only people knew my real age [which I don't intend on revealing].

BTW...
Depression is a state of low mood and aversion to activity. A depressed person will experience or display some of the following:

Persistent sadness, anxiety or feelings of emptiness
Feelings of hopelessness, helplessness and/or pessimism.
Feelings of worthlessness or guilt
Contemplating suicide or suicide attempt
Click to expand...
 
elixirdream
just stop whining and power abusing then you are different

you don't need to post an essay to voice your problem
just do it....

do you really need to tell the whole world you are depressed because of this
if so.. why not go FIX IT than typing this out
of course.. sharing would help but that doesn't fix the whole issue

although, i don't know you well but these are what i observes from you

- showing off
- power abusing
- quitter
- asking weird questions
- curious but never knows how to pull the brake (this is why people think you are annoying)
- offend people because you don't understand ethnic/culture differences
- trying to be relevant when you are not

personally, i hate people using the word RAPE...visit me and read some articles then you will know why!
basically, think properly before you speak/ask
otherwise, you are alright

wait a minute.. what happened to the girl you like or the other way round?
thats something positive...?

what happened to PS3? damn... i haven't get my chance to play my PS3...

you got a life there... enjoy and never take things here too serious
because we are all different
 
B
[quote name='Costello' post='2977503' date='Jul 12 2010, 09:14 AM']cheer up little buddy.
and it's funny that you mention being annoying, because when people your age hang around long enough, its like watching a kid grow up, you actually start to see improvement over time :D
i remember people like dice in the early days, well the man he is now, who could have told?[/quote]

Wow, you're absolutely right! I've never even seen it that way. I sure have seen my fair share of them! I still miss some of the old members sometimes... :)
 
ProtoKun7
[quote name='prowler_' post='2977438' date='Jul 12 2010, 01:39 PM']holy crap, nobody ban him. it might result in suicide.[/quote]
I lol'd and also remembered nadoon. :rofl:

[quote name='Costello' post='2977503' date='Jul 12 2010, 02:14 PM']cheer up little buddy.
and it's funny that you mention being annoying, because when people your age hang around long enough, its like watching a kid grow up, you actually start to see improvement over time :D
i remember people like dice in the early days, well the man he is now, who could have told?[/quote]
And p1ngpong. ;) :ninja:
 
iFish
Uhm... what happend. i think i fell asleep shortly after :ha: well... i'm back
 
B
I personally think it would be a better idea to talk about this with a best friend or something, those people can physically give you a hug ;). And be optimistic, being negative usually makes your life negative and being positive makes your life positive. So cheer up and read a book. ;)
 
Goli
Cheer up! D:
If it makes you feel better you've never pissed me off :).
 

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