Well, today i'm going to write about a more serious topic. Today i will write about my experinces with others at the same age.
Well, let's start with Elementary School (or whatever "Grundschule" is called in english). I was in Elementary School (in heimersheim, Germany) and did my thing. I didin't had friends back then in heimersheim. Later on, i was going to the Elenentary School in Bad-Neuenahr (Germany, near bonn). I was in the 2nd grade back then. I was mobbed by every one, because... well, i was let's say diffrant. I had other interests and talked about topics, that no one understood back then. Because of this, i was mobbed. Then it was the year 2012 and i switched school (again).This time to the "Don-Bosco-Schule", in Ahrweiler. It was a spcial school or a "Sonder/Förderschule", so a school for people (like me) that have something special and are slower then "normal" people in learning. I was in the 3rd grade and all seemed normal. But then, i was mobbed by the others again. It was going like a circle where i was locked and couldn't escape. It then was going normal (so in 4th-5th class, because i then was affraid, to say something wrong and then getting beaten up by the others. In the 6th class it was also going normal, because i decided to not talk to the others and just ignore them, because i then developed a Social Anxiety. From the 7th grade, i was getting mobbed by someone in class. My teacher noticed it and asked me why i would not do something against him(i could not do something, except going tru it). My teacher suggested me that if he would not stop mobbing me, that i should defend myself with my arms, but i was affraid because i was (and still to this day) not very strong back then. Then in 9th grade, it was getting better (thanks to my integration teacher (a special person, that sits next to me and is helping me alot) with the class. Now i'm in the 10th grade and i'm being accepted by the class (which did not changed that much, except that we got new ones. But They are still the same people). The one that mobbed me in the 7th grade seems to accept(?) me also (i don't belive him. But i'm actually secared of him and have kinda respect for him <or what ever i should call it>. I'm actually bigger then him, so that i should not be affraid of him, but i'm affraid). But now, i have Social Anxiety and can't get over it in asking someone, if he could hang out with me, (i actually made progress in getting over it, but only the 1 time. The second tine, i'm too anxious to ask, because i don't want to annoy them) because i'm feeling better, when i'm in the class with my "friends".
Today i reached the point in life, where i'm sometimes feeling down (like having depression, except that it's not, because i'm only sometimes feeling down and just hating myself.) Then came the boredom and with this, my bad addiction came (which i will not describe any further). Later on, i decided to register here, because i had a good feeling about the site (and wanted to try something new, because this is the first time, that i use a internet forum) and this is helping me getting away from my addiction. I was welcomed with open arms and now i'm here, writing this and having fun on the forum. I hope that i (sometime) get over my Social Anxiety and make some friends in RL (and hopefully here too!).
Well, this was almost the story of my life, looking at how long it became.
Well, let's start with Elementary School (or whatever "Grundschule" is called in english). I was in Elementary School (in heimersheim, Germany) and did my thing. I didin't had friends back then in heimersheim. Later on, i was going to the Elenentary School in Bad-Neuenahr (Germany, near bonn). I was in the 2nd grade back then. I was mobbed by every one, because... well, i was let's say diffrant. I had other interests and talked about topics, that no one understood back then. Because of this, i was mobbed. Then it was the year 2012 and i switched school (again).This time to the "Don-Bosco-Schule", in Ahrweiler. It was a spcial school or a "Sonder/Förderschule", so a school for people (like me) that have something special and are slower then "normal" people in learning. I was in the 3rd grade and all seemed normal. But then, i was mobbed by the others again. It was going like a circle where i was locked and couldn't escape. It then was going normal (so in 4th-5th class, because i then was affraid, to say something wrong and then getting beaten up by the others. In the 6th class it was also going normal, because i decided to not talk to the others and just ignore them, because i then developed a Social Anxiety. From the 7th grade, i was getting mobbed by someone in class. My teacher noticed it and asked me why i would not do something against him(i could not do something, except going tru it). My teacher suggested me that if he would not stop mobbing me, that i should defend myself with my arms, but i was affraid because i was (and still to this day) not very strong back then. Then in 9th grade, it was getting better (thanks to my integration teacher (a special person, that sits next to me and is helping me alot) with the class. Now i'm in the 10th grade and i'm being accepted by the class (which did not changed that much, except that we got new ones. But They are still the same people). The one that mobbed me in the 7th grade seems to accept(?) me also (i don't belive him. But i'm actually secared of him and have kinda respect for him <or what ever i should call it>. I'm actually bigger then him, so that i should not be affraid of him, but i'm affraid). But now, i have Social Anxiety and can't get over it in asking someone, if he could hang out with me, (i actually made progress in getting over it, but only the 1 time. The second tine, i'm too anxious to ask, because i don't want to annoy them) because i'm feeling better, when i'm in the class with my "friends".
Today i reached the point in life, where i'm sometimes feeling down (like having depression, except that it's not, because i'm only sometimes feeling down and just hating myself.) Then came the boredom and with this, my bad addiction came (which i will not describe any further). Later on, i decided to register here, because i had a good feeling about the site (and wanted to try something new, because this is the first time, that i use a internet forum) and this is helping me getting away from my addiction. I was welcomed with open arms and now i'm here, writing this and having fun on the forum. I hope that i (sometime) get over my Social Anxiety and make some friends in RL (and hopefully here too!).
Well, this was almost the story of my life, looking at how long it became.
