Just a while ago, like one hour, I got the news that the guy that lived with my mother, passed away from cancer.
He wasn't a good person, he used to hit my mother, my sister and my brother (the ones that weren't blood related to him), so I don't feel shit for him, I'm not sad nor happy, just indiferent. The problem that this causes tho, is that my mother and kid brothers will have no stable income, my sister went there today and they didn't even have money for food, my sister, a 18 year old (19 tomorrow) had to buy them food and all the necessities cuz they didn't have any.
I don't care about my mother, she's stupid and she can't do anything right, she ruined my sister's life and I could never forgive her for making my beloved sister going through a hellish childhood. Tomorrow is her birthday, and coincidently it'll also be the guy's funeral, it's just messed up... I can't even begin to imagine how she must feel, she's a really strong girl, we were always different and followed diferent paths in life, while she grew up surrounded by darkness, I grew up surrounded by light, I had everthing and she had nothing... The life she deserved was taken away by my mother's stupidity, but even so, she's my mother and I can't hate her for it.
Sometimes an older brother needs to be strong for their younger siblings, but I'm useless, from my mothers side alone (excluding my sister), there's 3 boys, one is 16, one is 8 (or 9, dunno for sure) and then there's a new one that's around 4 or 5 (I've never even met this one).
We live in opposite sides of the country, while I leave in the north of the country, they leave at the south, in the furthest part from the country.
All I could give my sister was my normal conversation, which revolved mainly around food (pizza mostly) and motorbikes. I'm worthless as an older brother when I can't do anything for the sister I love.
I hate this depressing feeling from being worthless. ='D
He wasn't a good person, he used to hit my mother, my sister and my brother (the ones that weren't blood related to him), so I don't feel shit for him, I'm not sad nor happy, just indiferent. The problem that this causes tho, is that my mother and kid brothers will have no stable income, my sister went there today and they didn't even have money for food, my sister, a 18 year old (19 tomorrow) had to buy them food and all the necessities cuz they didn't have any.
I don't care about my mother, she's stupid and she can't do anything right, she ruined my sister's life and I could never forgive her for making my beloved sister going through a hellish childhood. Tomorrow is her birthday, and coincidently it'll also be the guy's funeral, it's just messed up... I can't even begin to imagine how she must feel, she's a really strong girl, we were always different and followed diferent paths in life, while she grew up surrounded by darkness, I grew up surrounded by light, I had everthing and she had nothing... The life she deserved was taken away by my mother's stupidity, but even so, she's my mother and I can't hate her for it.
Sometimes an older brother needs to be strong for their younger siblings, but I'm useless, from my mothers side alone (excluding my sister), there's 3 boys, one is 16, one is 8 (or 9, dunno for sure) and then there's a new one that's around 4 or 5 (I've never even met this one).
We live in opposite sides of the country, while I leave in the north of the country, they leave at the south, in the furthest part from the country.
All I could give my sister was my normal conversation, which revolved mainly around food (pizza mostly) and motorbikes. I'm worthless as an older brother when I can't do anything for the sister I love.
I hate this depressing feeling from being worthless. ='D
