wish there was a way to simply, die.
i cant.
don't want anything, hate it all, ALL, everything rots more and more everyday, there is nothing good awaiting at rest of my life, everything turns more difficult everyday, every day more pressure, more stress, more shit, more decay, rot, i hate it and myself.
fcuj, everyday turns worse than day before, I lose more of myself everyday, every thing that seems to be good at one day, reveals its shit the next days and makes you pay it off all the hope u had for it.
all hope is broken, all of it. don't want those hopes anymore, whats in it? why bother going to japan? whats there? nothing. whats in gaming biz? nothing. there is nothing in nothing. nothing in anything. nothing in everything. wish I was a child once again. can't even debate or argue with people, I rather give everything they want and let them fuck me up and not to talk about it, just shut up. hate myself, there are thousounds of people who develop homebrews for DS and other systems, not to mention those geniuses who hack those devices and make them run their code and here I am who has to put 10 hours to add some stupid little features and post them constantly in every minor version to his stupid topic to what? as Jymz said I'm "sucker for that quick reward, boy". what, you think they gonna worship you for this? HAHA.
wish there could be someway to die without my intereference since I dont have balls for doing it myself and end this. if hitler could succeed there would be no weaklings like me who acts like leeches to community, nothing more.
fuck.
hate.
everyone hates me, everyone.
i cant.
don't want anything, hate it all, ALL, everything rots more and more everyday, there is nothing good awaiting at rest of my life, everything turns more difficult everyday, every day more pressure, more stress, more shit, more decay, rot, i hate it and myself.
fcuj, everyday turns worse than day before, I lose more of myself everyday, every thing that seems to be good at one day, reveals its shit the next days and makes you pay it off all the hope u had for it.
all hope is broken, all of it. don't want those hopes anymore, whats in it? why bother going to japan? whats there? nothing. whats in gaming biz? nothing. there is nothing in nothing. nothing in anything. nothing in everything. wish I was a child once again. can't even debate or argue with people, I rather give everything they want and let them fuck me up and not to talk about it, just shut up. hate myself, there are thousounds of people who develop homebrews for DS and other systems, not to mention those geniuses who hack those devices and make them run their code and here I am who has to put 10 hours to add some stupid little features and post them constantly in every minor version to his stupid topic to what? as Jymz said I'm "sucker for that quick reward, boy". what, you think they gonna worship you for this? HAHA.
wish there could be someway to die without my intereference since I dont have balls for doing it myself and end this. if hitler could succeed there would be no weaklings like me who acts like leeches to community, nothing more.
fuck.
hate.
everyone hates me, everyone.
Splinter Cell: Chaos Theory