OKAY, SOME PEOPLE HERE ALREADY KNOW THIS (i mean, i told people on the temp first, before i told anyone else) BUT I'M SAYING IT ANYWAYS
I really don't like being female, not because "muh opression" or anything, but because it just feels wrong, if you get what I mean?
I'd kinda known this for a while, but I'd just pushed those feelings off to the side for as long as possible, until it got to the point where how I almost constantly thought about things like wishing I were less feminine looking, wishing I sounded less feminine, wishing I didn't have tits (because, let's face it, tits are a pain in the ass) and a bunch of other things.
It was then (May 6th of this year) I decided to actually tell some temp members about it since I didn't know what else to do and I was scared as to what my parents thought.
About a week or so after that, I had told my mom half of what I wanted to tell her (the "I don't feel comfortable being female" bit) via text on my phone, then a few days after that, during the lunch break at my school I told her the rest of what I'd wanted to tell her (the "I wish I were male instead" bit.)
My mom told me she would try and get me in to see a therapist after her car was fixed (the break fluid line had been cut by someone when she was at a concert with my dad,) but even after she got her car fixed, it took her a long time to do that, and I think the reason WHY she waited was because, the other day, when I was at an appointment with my occupational therapist (for my SPD and other issues,) near the end of the appointment, my mom asked my OT if she knew of any good children's therapists. My mom didn't state the reason why I wanted to see one, just that I did, so my OT referred me to a children's therapist. I haven't gone to seen the therapist yet.
TL;DR I think being a chick is shit and I want to be male instead, and i'm probably starting therapy for this shit soon
also vaginas are gross
I really don't like being female, not because "muh opression" or anything, but because it just feels wrong, if you get what I mean?
I'd kinda known this for a while, but I'd just pushed those feelings off to the side for as long as possible, until it got to the point where how I almost constantly thought about things like wishing I were less feminine looking, wishing I sounded less feminine, wishing I didn't have tits (because, let's face it, tits are a pain in the ass) and a bunch of other things.
It was then (May 6th of this year) I decided to actually tell some temp members about it since I didn't know what else to do and I was scared as to what my parents thought.
About a week or so after that, I had told my mom half of what I wanted to tell her (the "I don't feel comfortable being female" bit) via text on my phone, then a few days after that, during the lunch break at my school I told her the rest of what I'd wanted to tell her (the "I wish I were male instead" bit.)
My mom told me she would try and get me in to see a therapist after her car was fixed (the break fluid line had been cut by someone when she was at a concert with my dad,) but even after she got her car fixed, it took her a long time to do that, and I think the reason WHY she waited was because, the other day, when I was at an appointment with my occupational therapist (for my SPD and other issues,) near the end of the appointment, my mom asked my OT if she knew of any good children's therapists. My mom didn't state the reason why I wanted to see one, just that I did, so my OT referred me to a children's therapist. I haven't gone to seen the therapist yet.
TL;DR I think being a chick is shit and I want to be male instead, and i'm probably starting therapy for this shit soon
also vaginas are gross
