So, you know that girl from the last blog I posted who is also my bestfriend?
Well, tonight we were just chattin on Facebook and the conversation kinda went like this:
Me: Fuck dude, I'm bored
Her: I'm just depressed lol
Me: I noticed you aren't really yourself, why are you depressed?
Her: I need a boyfriend, me and B go to the mall and we see all these couples and it just makes me feel really lonely
*now keep in mind, I pretty much do like her even though she is my bestfriend and I was trying not to like her, but going back to the blog last week, she wanted to bang me at her house but she was really drunk so I wasn't gunna do anything and then we were at a party a few days afterwards and she started 21Q'ing me about liking her and I gave in and told her*
Me: I see.
Her: Yeah, its poopy
Me: Yeah it is, being lonely is balls (trying to get her to give me some more hints)
Her: Yeah, idk
After this I tried to play it off acting stupid, so it wasn't so awkward because I am really confused about everything which I will get to in a minute, and she just said everything so fast that I was just like "how the fuck do I respond to this?"
And its extremely confusing, she asked me to Prom back in April which is usually a sure sign that someone likes you a little bit, but the whole Prom thing feel through and I don't want to dig up those bad memories and that story. And then she tells me sometimes about how she likes this other kid, and she has done shit with my friends brother too so I don't fucking know what to think at all. I don't know if she is just ranting to me about it or wanting to hint at the fact that she likes me. FFFFFFFFFFUUUUUUUUU- I don't know what to do, she ended the conversation though and I knew I fucked up after that. I feel like I shit, I wish I said something but Idk what to think.
fuck.
/rant and story
And sorry you all have to read this, I just need some place to rant
Well, tonight we were just chattin on Facebook and the conversation kinda went like this:
Me: Fuck dude, I'm bored
Her: I'm just depressed lol
Me: I noticed you aren't really yourself, why are you depressed?
Her: I need a boyfriend, me and B go to the mall and we see all these couples and it just makes me feel really lonely
*now keep in mind, I pretty much do like her even though she is my bestfriend and I was trying not to like her, but going back to the blog last week, she wanted to bang me at her house but she was really drunk so I wasn't gunna do anything and then we were at a party a few days afterwards and she started 21Q'ing me about liking her and I gave in and told her*
Me: I see.
Her: Yeah, its poopy
Me: Yeah it is, being lonely is balls (trying to get her to give me some more hints)
Her: Yeah, idk
After this I tried to play it off acting stupid, so it wasn't so awkward because I am really confused about everything which I will get to in a minute, and she just said everything so fast that I was just like "how the fuck do I respond to this?"
And its extremely confusing, she asked me to Prom back in April which is usually a sure sign that someone likes you a little bit, but the whole Prom thing feel through and I don't want to dig up those bad memories and that story. And then she tells me sometimes about how she likes this other kid, and she has done shit with my friends brother too so I don't fucking know what to think at all. I don't know if she is just ranting to me about it or wanting to hint at the fact that she likes me. FFFFFFFFFFUUUUUUUUU- I don't know what to do, she ended the conversation though and I knew I fucked up after that. I feel like I shit, I wish I said something but Idk what to think.
fuck.
/rant and story
And sorry you all have to read this, I just need some place to rant