Return to war...?Jul 28, 2020
Costello stands by the window of his tower, his youngest child in his embrace, surveying all around him. Gazing upon all that he has built and the never ending enemies at the gate.
His grip tightens on his child, tight but gentle. He holds it close to his chest, close to his heart, as the enemies gather and scramble at the walls. Never ending.
Shaun covers the canvas with paint, stabs and slashes at it with his brush, his brow tight and furrowed with lines and wrinkles. The heathens do not appreciate the art, the creation or the vision. All they want is to take and never give, to claw away as much as they can for free. Surrounded by these imbeciles the rage courses through him, fuels him, in every waking hour and in his dreams.
The staff, the loyal, they work tirelessly, they battle the enemies, the heathens, the thieves. Day and night it rages endlessly, from the day GBAtemp was created until the day the internet ends. Nobody thanks them, nobody acknowledges the sacrifices, for years they have resisted. They are strong thankfully, and when the day breaks they are always victorious, and nobody appreciates what they do.
They are fighting now, as we speak.
I sit alone, remembering how hard and thankless my time was here. When I led the charge every night until daybreak and fought along my brothers and my sisters.
I believed my time was done, that I had served, that I had passed on the burden to others and never wanted it back.
At least I thought I never wanted it back. Or to be more honest, I lie to myself to try and convince myself that I do not.
But the Gods of war are calling to me again.....
Update NineOct 29, 2019
I am not sure how long we have been part of the group for, I think it has been a few months now. My past life being a blur it is hard to say. It was still warm when we joined now it is cold. I know the first few days working the heat was very exhausting, sweat and other bodily fluids would pour down my body as I toiled.
Now that the climate is cooler and my wounds have healed I am more comfortable in my servitude. I am still getting used to my newly found disability however I think I made a wise choice as to what to sacrifice as I am still relatively mobile and have kept my dexterity. Watching others in the tunnels when I am between work and worship I have to admire the sacrifices some have made, some have even offered more than one gift to our matriarch which I admire. Maybe one day I will sacrifice another part, maybe even a sense. Gifting a sense to her seals your future and guarantees a place by her when the days of ascension come.
The hardest part of this whole transition must be the weakness and hunger. I try and keep working regardless and just think of her to maintain my strength but the physical toll is evident to me. I can see bones and ribs where there was flesh before on my body. The trouble is with the colder times less people pass from fatigue so there are longer gaps between our feasts. I do see some though, the elderly, with their strength failing they can barely work their picks and hammers, hopefully soon one will be released and we can fill our belly again..... or maybe I will sacrifice another part and keep the majority for myself as is my right. Maybe that is something to save for when we have fewer old ones in the future however.
Other than that the days are calm, work and worship with little disruption. Very calming. We had one incident a while ago when I first joined, one of the family who joined shortly after me tried to escape while the rest worshipped. A very serious sin indeed however it brought us closer together in the end. Those who try and leave or betray the mother must sacrifice it all, all mobility and all senses to the rest of the family as a penance.
We each took a bite, a finger, an ear, a limb while she wailed and cried until only the core of her body, only the most vital components remained. She lay there for several days still wailing quietly as we continued on with our duties before she finally let go. If she had not betrayed us she would have had a place by the matriarchs side as she had given absolutely everything to her, sight, sound, touch, taste, mobility. Alas she will now only wander in black with the rest of the unbelievers instead of joyfully serving the mother and her children and bask in tender fire.
I will never allow such a fate to occur to me or my daughters. They have sacrificed gladly and they work along side me and they wait for the next feast to come.
They are true believers and I am proud of them.x65943 likes this.
Project Stream is comingMar 28, 2019
Project Stream is coming.
Brace yourselves, take a deep breath, get ready, it is coming.
This will involve you all...
No member of the site will be excluded...
This will change everything...
Consequences will never be the same again....
I can hardly wait.
Always knew I was different....Oct 12, 2017
*takes deep breath*
This is a very difficult blog for me to write, perhaps the most difficult thing I have ever had to write in all my years on this site. Amidst all of the coming out blogs I have found the courage to admit that I too am different, I too am special and that all of you need to know and all of you must approve.
You see even from the time I was a small child I was different, special, cursed, use whatever term you like I was unlike everyone around me. I looked upon my parents and felt that they had nothing to teach me, I looked upon other children and I could not relate. I was only ever comfortable in the company of old people but even then I could not put my finger on why exactly that was.
After spending years on the internet searching for a group I could belong to and attach myself to I finally found the answer I was searching for. I finally found my identity and everything clicked and everything made sense.
You see my sweet sweet children I am an elderkin and I am almost a thousand years old. Upon this realisation everything made sense about me, that was why I could never relate to the children around me and was always wise beyond my years. Now I gaze upon the faces of my parents, of old people and they seem so young. When I look into the mirror I see my true form, wizened and ancient, I was there when there was no technology or electricity, I was there when there were no cars, when buildings were built from wood and stone.
I am the ancient oak that shades all of the saplings here on GBAtemp, one day I will fall and you all will sprout into the sunlight, into the sky. But until then feel free to lean on me and shelter under my mighty branches.
I love you all. (apart from the gays)
About my new usernameMar 28, 2013
So many people have been wondering about the new username I am going by now, if its a joke, a reference to something and so on. I joined GBAtemp a long time ago, it almost feels that when I joined I was living another life, that I was another person. A lot has changed since 08 when I joined and the username I used to go by no longer fits my interests, beliefs, morals or the person I have matured into.
So yes the name NarutoNeedForSpeed13 is here to stay. I have every right to adopt a new name that reflects the person I am now without being harassed and accosted.
p1ngpong as a member, as an idea, as an avatar as an intangible thing is dead now, NarutoNeedForSpeed13 has a new life to lead.
Now kindly fuck off, leave me alone, and let me live my new life in peace.
dreamOct 7, 2011
Ever have one of those dreams that was so lucid, so real, so impossible, that when you awaken from it you do not know where you are or who you are?
A dream so powerful that your stirring moments after it seem less real then the dream itself.
Beyond the impossibilities of time, logic, life and death, even during it you know it to be an illusion. But still, your subconscious yields to the lie, and you let yourself live it until the morning comes.
And then, after lying to yourself, the only comfort you have is the fading memory of a lucid dream.
And you can only hope that one day you can lie to yourself just one more time, and be lucky enough to dream that dream again.
Stepping back upJun 21, 2011
This is going to be a short blog but to the point.
I quit as a mod six weeks ago because I was down about things. I never really stopped being staff though, I have been doing my thing behind the scenes as always in that time.
But I just felt bad not being on the front line with the rest of the mods, helping to moderate the site.
So I asked Costello just now if I could come back. And he said yes.
Feels good to be back man.
You have a good day, GBAtemp.
ZalmanFeb 11, 2011
Well Im not one to blog generally, but I thought I would make a quick blog about the Zalman cooler I got and fitted to my Asus GTX 480 graphics card today. For those who aren't familiar with the Fermi series of cards by Nvidia, and especially the GTX 480 series, they are power house cards but run notoriously hot. In some instances even reaching 90c + when playing some games. Running metro 2033 I was easily topping 80c with no overclock, and wouldn't even think about overclocking with the stock cooling it came with.
I already had a Zalman cooler fitted to my cpu, which works beautifully, so I decided to go with Zalman for my GTX. An image of my CPU cooler fitted in my pc is bellow.
Anyway dismantling the GTX was fairly straight forward thankfully, but there was thermal paste all over the place when I opened it up. I was expecting a neater job from Asus seeing as they are a very good company for this sort of thing. Pictures of a stock GTX 480 and my GTX with no heatsink can be seen below. Notice the thermal paste they used which was all over the place, and on the top left the GTX's fan, which although fairly small is loud as hell, and doesn't do a very good job of cooling the thing.
Fitting the Zalman was fairly easy, and I wasn't as nervous as I thought I would be doing it considering the price of the card (roughly $400). The only tricky part was putting thermal paste on all its little chips, while making sure there was no overflow when I popped the Zalmans heatsink on. Anyway here is the finished product!
Running Furmark on stock, and with the stock fan on 100% speed I was getting temperatures of 90c+. With the Zalman on the lowest fan speed I am getting 75c, while on full blast Im reaching less than 65c. And on full blast the Zalman fans are extremely quiet, unlike the stock fan which sounded like a vacuum cleaner.
All in all Im very happy, and now, to overclock!
New gaming PC built!Jul 31, 2009
I decided to build a new PC. I was going to go with something mid speck and modest, but then I thought meh, I am p1ngpong, I need the best. Anything less then that is heresy and would piss me off!
So I built a beast, and here it is:
Stats of note:
CPU: Intel Core 2 Quad Q9550 Cpu, 2.83 Ghz 12MB cache
HDD: 1TB SATA, 7200rpm 32MB cache
RAM: Corsair 4 GB DDR3 1600MHZ
Graphics: SAPPHIRE TECH Radeon HD 4870 Vapor-X 2GB GDDR5
With a nice 64bit OS and all that good shit to top it off.
I havent had much time to play around with it, I only built it yesterday. But I gave Company of Heroes Opposing fronts a go with all settings on max and got a minimum framerate of 56 fps and max of 89 fps. That made me happy.
Leaving forever!!! :(Nov 29, 2008
And other dramatic threads like this should be avoided. Im not having a dig at anyone as I have done it myself, its easy to get frustrated and mad over the internet.
But at the end of the day this place isnt a job and no one is keeping you here, you can come and go as you please! Why take the forum so seriously? Theres too much drama here lately, and although it keeps things interesting, at the end of the day the drama comes through someone being upset and pissed off. Let me ask you, why get so emotional over this place? If you have a falling out at school, work, with your parents or other loved ones, you dont leave them forever!
If you do want to leave forever or quit its a sad thing, but can you really say that your never going to come to GBAtemp again to check whats new in the world of gaming? And you are never going to speak to the friends you made here ever again? When your bored online are you not going to come here ever again to kill an hour or two?
Even lurking here after being an active member for ages is bullshit, you made hundreds of posts had a laugh with people, helped or were helped by others here. But you got pissed off, or maybe this place is not as great as it once was in your eyes. So you decide to just delete your avatar sig and friends list and just lurk every day, like some monk whos taken a vow of silence? Gimme a break!
Like I said Im not directing this to anyone in particular, Im just as guilty of this as anyone. But please people, p1ngy begs you, if you get pissed off, go for a walk, chill out, play a game! Dont go off on a mad rant that you will regret, and then spend the rest of your life lurking in the background like some fucking martyr. And dont go saying you quit without realising what those words actually mean!
Just have fun and relax, this is a gaming forum, it should be about fun!ComeTurismO likes this.